Today I would like to testify to how God brought me through one of the hardest things I ve ever experienced. The year was 2002 , a yr after my husband and I married. We were expecting our first child, a little boy. I was 8 and 1/2 months pregnant. We had the nursery ready, I had had 2 baby showers...we were ready. I was schedule for our regular check up, went in and all was the norm. The Dr. prepared to check babies heart rate, unfortunitly he could not find it. He brought in the ultra sound machine and said just as I suspected. He asked us to go across the street to the local hospital. We went. There they did another ultra sound and the tech said ,Sorry but your baby is dead. Go home and your body will go into labor on its own in about a week. We were devastated and had to tell the family.All I could do was cry and pray they were wrong. For 4 days I carried him with the knowledge of his passing. My sister in law called me and told me she felt led by God to tell me to go to another hospital and get a second opinion...We did. We were still told the baby had passed, but never stopped believing they were wrong. However they said I was running a very high temp and blood work showed I had infection in my blood. My baby was decomposing inside of me. They said my life was now at risk. They insisted on induction. So labor started shortly after. That was a friday evening I delivered him on Saturday evening vaginally, the delivery took so long because he was unable to push . Our baby was indeed dead. We only got to visit with him for a very short time. We were overwhelmed with having to make funeral arragements when we should have been rejoicing. I was released that Sunday, Mothers Day. Still yet that day is hard for me because I spent my first mothers day morning my child. The days that followed were not easy I had an empty nursery to come home to, my milk came in, and for the months that followed I recieved the new mom monthly magazine. I was depressed. I cried all day and night. I prayed God would restore my joy and peace. We continued going to church and serving God but inside I was dead, And honestly wanted to be. One day when I had been praying for my peace and joy. I began reading the prayer of Jabez book and in it it compared the name of Jabez to that of Soloman. And it mentioned that Soloman ment Peace...That night when Chester came home he said hed be praying and God told him to name our next son Soloman. I knew this was God because I had prayef for joy and peace and Soloman meant Peace... A few months later I became pregnant again, they did discover I had a blood clotting disorder and that is what had caused his death . So they imediatly started me on blood thinner. 9 months later God restored my Joy ....Through my daughter Abigail whose name in fact means source of Joy. I can not say the pain is gone, in fact this story is usually told by my husband because I can not tell it with out crying and this happened over 12 yrs ago. But I can say God brought me through it. He has blessed me with 3 more bio kids and 2 adoptions. And it took 12 yrs but Our second son is named Soloman , Deontae Soloman. However God did not make me wait that long for my peace. No , he showed me the peace I needed could not be found in anything but him. I learned to trust him and Thank him for everything. People often think Im very over protective but this why. I am thankful God trusts me with the children HE has lent me and I want to do my absolute best with them because he has trusted me with them. Death is never easy but there is comfort in knowing you will see them again and I must say I would not have survived this if not for God. My husband and I were told that our marriage would not survive this tragedy , according to statistics, they were wrong. God made our relationship/bond stronger through this as well. With Christ all things are possible. He makes a way were there seems to be no way. Thank you Miranda Hodsden for your testimony, You have certainly been blessed and I know this will give hope to the mothers in waiting
Posted on: Fri, 01 Aug 2014 02:20:37 +0000
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