Today a year ago I received the awful news that my daddy was not doing well. We had just returned home to Georgia. It was Sean Grandon first day back at work. I was asleep when the phone rang. As soon as I saw the 304 number I knew it wasnt good. Honestly the next few hours were a blur. Red cross message for Sean to get emergency leave. On the phone with my mom getting information. Packing for all of us. Thank goodness most everything was still packed. Knowing in my heart I had to pack funeral clothes. On the phone with my sissy Angie Casto Kerns seeing if flying would be faster. Locating pictures that I knew I wanted to take with me. And the worst part, Going to the school and telling the girls how sick papa was. I dont remember driving there. I think maybe Cheree LaBelle took me. The drive to WV was also a blur. We checked into a hotel in Huntington... had to go there first because we had the dogs with us. Again this is something Angie took care finding for us. Mom came out to the waiting room and tried to prepare me. Walking into his room.... I had walked into that room 100s of times doing the months we stayed at the hospital. Nothing could have prepared me. Seeing him so swelled up... I grabbed moms hand and ran. Ran to the hallway dont remember much after that. After awhile I was okay.... well not okay.... I was strong for the girls. The girls, Sean, my mom and myself went back again. Daddy told each of us that he loved us. We didnt stay long in the room with the girls. After that visit Sean and the girls went back to the hotel. I stayed in the room with daddy. My aunt Jeanie stayed with me. Mom was in waiting room she had not slept for days. I just watched him breathe. Thats all I remember.... watching and listening. The sound of the machines. Luke his nurse coming in thru out the night making sure he was not in pain. I dont remember crying at this point. I was numb. The shirt I wore that night hangs in my closet... untouched.... I will never wear it again. It was the shirt I wore when my daddy died. That morning after speaking with daddys team of doctors we knew keeping him on those machines any longer was selfish. Daddy was no longer communicating... I couldnt be in the room... I couldnt. Mom said daddy passed so so easy. Within 3 minutes after being removed for the vent he was gone... Katie Marshall Mills thank you for coming up. Just seeing your face.... my daddy loved you. Ms Wanda Watts you brought so much joy to us doing the darkest time in our life. Patricia Link and Sheila Chambers for your visit that night. I remember Sheila holding daddys hand. (And Patty, one of the things I remeber about daddys funeral is your joke.. I remeber it clearly) Angie, what would we have done without you. I would have forgotten how to breathe. My girls and Sean... how much I love you it is immeasurable. You are my life. I think about daddy daily... sometimes I laugh other times I cant cry hard enough. I dream about him often and also receive little signs. Nite before last I was really upset. After calming down I went to what to expect when u are excepting forum. I was reading some of the questions. Just skimming thru. I clicked on one. The person was asking a question..... the screen name of the person that answered the question...... IS THAT U BOB.... Daddy I will miss you until my last breath and will always be daddys little girl.
Posted on: Wed, 01 Oct 2014 21:14:52 +0000
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