Today had started out well, slept better last night than I had in a bit. So when it went south it hit hard. I am generally weary when meeting new people and wondering what their agenda is and why they want to know me. Paranoia is a symptom of PTSD as is a feeling of not belonging. I started this page it was to let my story and struggles be known in hopes of helping others. Allowing people to see the other side in a very open and revealing way. The beading is what helps me heal. As time went on, my want and need to help became stronger so my goal was to at some point start a non profit. That was years away but it was fast tracked after the loss of my surragate father. That is also what caused some issues. Mostly it was miscommunication and things of that nature but it is still devastating when being told I was disrespecting or being dishonest. Having spent my life fighting and my career defending myself I never wanted to have to do it again. I will say that it broke my heart to have done that today. It ended well but devastating none the less. This page has allowed me to speak out about PTSD, but has also allowed me to heal. Never was my intent to sell my products, but know this..none of it goes into my pocket. It funds this and the non profit. With that being said I am signing off for the night. I need to rethink some things, re-evaluate and rebuild. Thank you all for the support and I hope you all have a good night. Rest easy, reach out, pay it forward and take care of each other...Heroes are on the wall.
Posted on: Tue, 17 Sep 2013 23:09:43 +0000
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