Today literally has forever changed me I woke up to the most horrifying call ever I say there and clenched my dad for almost an hour just petrified to let go for my own selfish reason I am not done needing him or ready to let go ,but for the first time since may he laid there peaceful and calm with all the pain gone! I feel like I have been outside my body all day! My heart has never been broke before and I know it will never be healed! The love a daughter has for their dad is not justified through words and I pray that man knows how much I respected and loved him with every ounce in me! Im torn between anger and sadness I still need him and hes not going to ever hug or kiss me again my child lost the only man who was ever always there my mom lost her bestfriend and my little sister at 17 lost her daddy! Its not fair! I cant stop the tears and I cant stop looking at his pictures but I will never forget how peaceful he seemed the last time I saw him ,all of his pain is finally gone the last months have been the hardest and its cruel what he had to go through,and what we had to watch but the fact hes with his lived ones and I got to kiss his beautiful face one last time and hold his hand will forever be carried with me!!!! I cant thank you enough jack for giving the love of a father and being the man you were to me,I will never be the same after today and I cant wait to see you again!!! I hope you knew how much I loved you !!!!!
Posted on: Sat, 18 Oct 2014 03:50:53 +0000
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