Today marks TWO months that our everyday crazy life came to a halt and changed drastically. Ill never forget September, 23 rd, 2:38pm. Ill Never forget who was in the room waiting for the news. Ill never forget the prayer by Pastor Eric before we left. Ill never forget Big Ed and I leaving Mateo in his hospital room into the meeting room. Ill never forget the words....your son has Leukemia. Ill never forget how hysterical I got. Ill never forget the feeling I felt that instant finding out our son has cancer. Ill never forget walking back into Mateos hospital room and standing at the sliding doors telling our family and friends. Ill never forget the emotions that were expressed. In these last 2 months, Ive learned more then I ever wanted to know about cancer, hospitals, medicines, procedures. Ive learned how devastating cancer is and the effect it has on family and friends. Ive seen my son suffer from procedures, pain, medicine and being restricted as to what he can do at the age of two and its only the beginning. To know our son is limited on where he can go and what he can do at the age of two doesnt seem fair. It doesnt seem fair the effect it has and the things we have to miss. Heart wrenching to see the effect that Mateos treatment and cancer have on Lil Ed and Diego. Ive felt so lost and hurt inside especially these last two weeks. Ive struggled to trust in the Lord and to hand all my pain, anger and fear to him. I constantly have to remind myself I am not in control. This is only the beginning of Mateos 3 1/2 year journey and we dont know what to expect which is super hard to fathom. However, I do know our support from all our family, our friends and people we dont even know gets us through each and every day. I do know that Mateos sickness is unfortunate and a nightmare, however I know it is bringing people back into believing and guiding those that never believed to wonder and ask great questions. I do know that when people say God doesnt give you more then you can handle there incorrect. God does indeed give you more then you can handle in order for us to turn to him, believe in HIM and hand it over to HIM. Thank you all for the love, prayers and support. I pray you will all fight this journey along side us to the end. Im thankful for the old friendships that rekindled and for the new friendships weve made. All in all Im thankful for each and everyday. Thank you so much for all the kind words, all the meals, all the prayers and the kind monetary donations. Lets fight this nasty disease together....TEAM MATEO....aka.....the BEAST.
Posted on: Sun, 24 Nov 2013 02:29:44 +0000
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