Today was quite somber for me. While I would certainly not dare to consider myself one of Chris close friends, I was close enough to see - both his smiles and his pain. And while almost all of our meetings or conversations were business oriented (with some personal thrown in - it was inevitable), we had a connection that was reflected in our life experiences. We were both city folk, we both endured 9/11 up close and helped get our companies back on their feet (quite a pressure), we both left the city for the country (for the same reasons), we were both serious musicians, and we were certainly both tech-heads. Chris had joked we were probably separated at birth. And it sure felt that way. We both had relationship issues. We were both perhaps a bit too sensitive. But that is where the similarities came to an end. I always sensed Chris was not happy. But I always refused to be unhappy. I looked for happiness everywhere. Chris would too, but somehow it was turned or evolved into a dark shadow. I wish we had hung out more on a casual basis. Maybe some of me would have rubbed off. I liked Chris. I had always hoped that someday I could include him in my plans for some sort of crazy tech company (or me in his plans for that matter). But sadly that cant happen. I certainly dont hold his choice against him - he had his reasons Im sure. And my sympathies go out to his close friends and family. But I do wish he reached out more. Maybe he thought he did. But today I really thought about and appreciated how good Ive got it. I will remember Chris as a super talented, amazingly brilliant, and deeply sensitive person, who wore his emotions on his sleeve and would do anything to help anybody in need. He was a kindred soul of sorts and I believe I missed an opportunity. Its rare I post un-happy things, and I promise I wont say more. Soon I will go back to my usual silly banter. But today I spent thinking about him. And tomorrow Ill spend thinking about being downtown on that infamous day our towers came down. But Ill be back to myself as quick as possible. RIP Chris....hope you found peace.
Posted on: Wed, 10 Sep 2014 23:14:07 +0000
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