Tomorrow is October 3rd. Im not sure, but Im feeling a bit nauseated and anxious about it. 2 years ago today (10/2), we were praying that Gavin just had Mono, because under the microscope, his bone marrow didnt look like typical leukemia cells. It was abnormal, but Mono could present this way. So, 2 years ago today, I was scared but hopeful. Tomorrow is the day that changed my/our lives forever. Gavin has T-cell acute lymphoblastic in leukemia. Then the harder to cure than B-cell statistics.... (Blah blah blah)..... Didnt want to hear it!!!!! He will get a PICC line today and start chemo tomorrow. What???? Wait!!!!! Dont I get a minute to process this?????? Tomorrow my then 6 yr old is going to get pumped with poison?????? Noooooo!!!!!! Tomorrow is going I to be a hard day, I can feel it. But, Ill get through it just like each and every day. Weve been walking this journey for 24 months now and still have 17 months to go. Gavins has had 19 admissions to the hospital in 23 months, 4 were scheduled, and the last 6 were in the last 3 months. The longest stretch between hospital stays was 4 beautiful months. As a side note and source of anxiety, since maintenance has been very shitty for us, hes getting a new mediport placed on Oct 13th, because the other one was infected. Im having anxiety about a new port. He wants it in the same spot, but they wont put it back in an area that was infected, plus scar tissue may be another reason. We will have that conversation closer to the time. For now, hes enjoying being portless.
Posted on: Fri, 03 Oct 2014 02:19:00 +0000
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