Umntu ngoka Thixo – Insert 6 When Gugu left my heart was sore, I loved him too much to let him go, my mind was telling me to do the right thing ndimshiye, while my heart was saying something else, i.e the opposite. I saw remorse in his eyes the time ebexolisa, xa sekuthethwi nyani, he was the only person who really cared about me, I mean my blood sisters where so busy living their lives bengenandaba nokuthi ndiyafunda na, uGugu was the only one who encouraged me to study and was paying for my fees. But bendimoyika , uthando lona belusekhona, aluhambi overnight kaloku, though I was too scared to face the world alone without uGugu , I was determined ukuthi ndiyamshiya , I have to start my own journey . I had no clue ukuthi ndizoyaphi. If bendizobalekela ekhaya bendingazokonwaba nalapho, ngoba uGugu ebengoyiki mntu nakhona. I so longed for my mom’s advice and comfort, but hey she was no more. I requested one of the nurse to phone uVuyo for me , umongikazi undixelele okokuba uVuyo promised ukuthi uzakuza azokundibona that day, she never pitched up. The following day, le bendizo dischargwer ngayo, I signed all the necessary forms, and left the hospital early , bendizimisele ukuya eflatini ndiyothatha oku kwee mpahla zam kunye neencwadi. Bendingafuni uGugu afike ndisesesibhedlele, as ba bendisazi uzakuza ukuzondithatha. So I was planning to walk from e Joburg Gen (Nick name for I Johannesburg Hospital , which is now called The Charlotte Maxeke Johannesburg Academic Hospital) all the way to eBraamfontein. When I was approaching the hospital gate, kuye kwakho imoto epipizayo. There was a young man in his twenties ehamba nomama oselebuqina. The man: Uyaphi sisi ingathi akukaphili ncam nje Me: eBraamfontein Bhuti, The man: Ngakuphi eBraam Me: Just below i-Damelin, The man:Hayi ke zininzi moss izitrato ngase Damelin Besendibudikwa nam , yile mibuzo ingapheliyo, I answered with an attitude Me: EJorrissen Street ke He laughed, The man: He he waske wadikwa kodwa ndizama ukuncedana nawe The Old Lady:Bendingasoze ndingadikwa nam if uyamnceda umntu mncede qha.. yimibuzo etheni le ingapheliyo Lukhanyiso. She looked at me Ngena sisi, uzakuqala ngam kodwa, then ayokuku dropper apho uhlala khona. Me: Hayi enkosi mama ndiyabulela iBraamfontein ayikho kude kangako apha, kungcono ndithi chu ngeenyawo , kunale yokuba kufuneka ndihambe nani kuqala The Old Lady: Uyathetha kunjalo nje, akwazi nokuba kuzakuqalwa ngam ndisiyaphi, khawungene wethu, akuziboni okokuba akuphilanga ? Lukhanyiso opened the door for me. I got in andathetha. He drove his mom to e-Auckland Park first, which was not that far, but I did not understand why passing iBraamfontein ngoba ibisendleleni, but xa uphiwe ilift , you accept whatever. Endleleni, Lukhanyiso’s mom started the conversation The Mom: Ndingu Mamu Mandisa ke mna ntombam , uMasithathu.Ndiphekela uGcina, Ngunyana wam lo bekubuza into engapheliyo, uLukhanyiso. ungubani ke wena sisi and ugula yintoni , kutheni ingathi uyaqaqanjelwa nje? Me: Ndingu Sivuyile mama,uMamntande, ndingowase Vosloorus, but ngoku bendihlala e Braam, ndifunda e Boston College. Ewe mama ndiyaqaqanjelwa, kodwa andiyazi ndibethwe ngubani Lukhanyiso: ha ha ha That’s impossible , how come ungayazi ukuthi ububethwa ngubani Mamu Mandisa: Ebecaphuka, Can’t you get the message ? she is politely telling us ukuthi she does not want to talk about it. OK ke sisi ndivile , nantsi inumber yam, when you need someone to talk , phone me. Whatever you do ke ntombam ubambelele eskolweni , yabe imoto ifika endlinabo Me: Ndiyabulela mama, ndiyakwenjenjalo. Xa ehlika uye wabamba izandla zam zozibini, she squeezed them very hard waziphuza, hayke, that affection yaske yandichukumisa ngaphakathi. I broke down ndakhala, yhuu lomama waske wandikhumbuza uthando luka mama wam ondizalayo, my mom ebethanda ukwenza the same . But yena ebezibamba izandla zam azithandazele,declaring that everything that I touch should be blessed and turn into gold in Jesus name. Especially by the time ebesegula she used to say .. Mama: My baby , everytime undirabha, I always say a silent prayer ukuthi uThixo asikelele ezizandla, akusikelele, ungaze usokole mntanam kunye nabantwana bakho. Mamu Mandisa asked me to get out of the car, she gave me a warm hug and brushed my back, ndicela ungene sisi, sifumane nokokuba yitea. Ube nokuhla ube –right. Me: Hayi mama ndiyabulela, ndiyaleqisa The thing is I wanted to get oku kwempahla zam eflatini before uGugu afike, bendisazi xa engandifumani esibhedlela, uzakungqala eflatini. We left no Lukhanyiso, ebemane ndibuza okokuba ndi-right . He ended up keeping quiet ngoba ebendibona okokuba andikho tu kulencoko yakhe. When we were approaching my flat I saw Gugu’s car iparkwe outside. He was not in the car. Me: Ndicela udlule nam ungandihlisi apha Lukhanyiso: Why ? sifikile morc ubungathi yile dan iflat yakho ? Me: Ewe yiyo, qha ndiyoyika.. I saw uGugu ephuma, ethetha kwi entrance ne security guard. Khawulezisa maan, andifuni laBhuti andibone , if undibone kunye nawe, ungofileyo nawe , akabuzi uyenza qha. Lukhanyiso made a u-turn quickly, ligwala noba ligwala kanti ..and we drove towards i-Parktown . He drove in eMikes Kitchen and ordered some drinks for us, all this time ebendijongile engathethi Me: Haybo , yintoni le ingaka , thetha xa ufunukuthetha Lukhanyiso: Khawutsho, is he the reason ukuthi ubenje ? is he your man ? Me: Ewe, kodwa ndisamthanda but ndiyamshiya, qha bendifuna nje ukuthatha impahla yam kunye neencwadi zam ndifune enye indawo yokuhlala for ixeshana kunye nomsebenzi. Lukhanyiso: Xa lomntu umoyika ngalendlela , uzokwazi njani ukuya eskolweni or ufune nalomsebenzi? Me: yhuu Hayi nawe uyakwazi ukuyibuza into maan, I am not worried about isikolo, I am only left with one month before my final exams, ndizokuya ngoyobhala qha Lukhanyiso: Yhoo andiyazi le sihlangane nayo nomama, let me phone her ndimxelele lentsumantsumane yakho, she is a social worker , angakwazi ukukunceda, provided uyafuna ukuncedwa phofu, umncinci kodwa uzifakezintweni ezinkulu, ubufuna ntoni in the first place kwelaxhego ? niyazithanda izinto nibancinci, ziphinde zinixake, jonga ngoku uyatatazela uxakene nomnqa. Me: Uyazi mntu wabantu undandiqheli kakubi, you gave me a lift ndingayicelanga, and khange ndithi ndifuna uncedo lwakho or olukamamakho for that matter, you know nothing about me yet you are judging me, Thanks for everything anyway, ndatsho ndiphakama Lukhanyiso: I know enough ukuthi you are on the run from your Sugar daddy, allow me to help you Me: Mnxim , stuff your help Lukhanyiso: Mnxim nakuwe Me: Are you for real ? I looked at him ,ndahamba, ndithe xa ndingasemnyango, Lukhanyiso shouted after me Lukhanyiso: Waiter, Waiter, losisi uyahamba kodwa akabhatelanga Hayibo lomfana , I had nothing morc, undibonile I was walking from eJoburg Gen , ibiyodwa le yokundijongisa ngabantu. When I looked at him, he was all smiles. I went back to the table Me:Ucingba wenzani ? Lukhanyiso: ndenzani ? I am trying to help you akuboni, while talking his mom phoned ebuza ba uhleli phi. He was suppose to take his younger brother somewhere. He told her everything about me endijongile. His mom insisted ukuthi abuye nam . Lukhanyiso:Uvile ke , iOlady lithethile, masambeni Me: Mnxim, nindifuna ntoni Kanye Kanye nomama wakho, anindazi nokundazi Lukhanyiso: Just stop being stubborn for nothing. If awuphakami apha ndizakuguga, I’m sure by now you know I am capable of doing that. We drove back to his home again, uLukhanyiso dropped me, wahamba no Lifa, ubrother wakhe omncinci. Ndishiyeke nomama wakhe ke, I told her everything, she promised to help me out , but she was on sick leave for few days. Nothing much happened in those few days, I had no clue ukuthi kwenzekani ngo Gugu. No Lukhanyiso we were at each other’s throat,he was so full of himself and yena ebesithi ndineshori gqithi. The following Monday, ndihambe no Mamu Mandisa ukuya emsebenzini wakhe, she said we will start eflatini yam to get my clothes and books, then we will proceed to e-police station to get i-court interdict against uGugu, thereafter, ebezakundisa in a place of safety for abused woman. When we arrived at my flat, we were not allowed to get in, uGugu had moved out with all our stuff. I was just worried about my books ukuthi ndizokuzifumana njani , I had made peace ukuthi andibuyeli skolweni the following year, but at least I wanted to finish off and pass my second year. UMamu Mandisa consoled me esithi ndingalahli themba kuzolunga. We then went to ePolice Station (won’t mention the name) when we got there, umgca wabafuna ukusizwa ubumde kanjani, what got us more upset, uMamu Mandisa tried to get her way to the front ebabonisa icard lomsebenzi. Hayi sana lokho akusizanga, instead when we got to the front, the police ebelisinceda belihamba ngonwabu, it was not funny. I’m sure we stayed there into engange yure, andazanga, ibingathi ndisephupheni ndibone kungena uGugu, apparently he was phoned by lelipolisa belisinceda. Ungene nje sebuza uphi mtshana Police: Naba Commander , watsho emalathisa thina He came and stood before me Gugu: Phakama sihambe Sivu Mamu Mandisa: You have no right – uye waqhawulwa ngempama nguGugu in full view of the police. Ndaske ndaphelelwa ngamandla, when the police just stood there abanqanda, epolice station hee he Gugu literally dragged me to his car ..endleleni, kuqale kwathuleka kwathetha yena kuqala Gugu: Sivu, I vowed that I will never ever hit you again, but don’t push me , uyandiva mntanandini ? Me:Andikuva, uthintelwa yintoni ungandibethi ? andithi sowuqalile I am your property uyandi-owner kaloku, continue Gugu, andikoyiki and andikoyiki nokufa Gugu: Bhabha andiyazi le uyenzayo into, I made a mistake , I am really sorry, I still can’t forgive myself for what I did to you, But we can’t continue like this Me: oh now everything is my fault, you took out everything from iflat including nencwadi zam ? Gugu: I was angry, uye wanyamalala iintsuku ndingakwazi ukuthi uphi, what did you expect me to think or do ? your clothes and books are safe with me , uzohlala nam ngoku, Me: I hate you Gugu, uyinja maan, let me go and live my life without you, you are not my God He just looked at me, wanikina intloko wa qhubeka e-driver At that point , I was not scared of him, I did not care anymore, noba benokundibulala bendingenandaba, besendifana nofileyo morc, impilo yam ibilalwa nguGugu. Just at that moment inyembezi ziye zehla..I asked God ukuthi kanti mna bendizalelwe ukuthi ndizokuhlukunyezwa nguGugu aphe bomini ? God gave each and everyone of us the power to choose, why mna ndachoselwa ngu Gugu the path yobomi bam from i-age of 10 years, why ezakuba ngu Thixo wam wasemhlabeni ? Yhoo usatana naye also see amathuba to execute his evil ways.. a thought flickered in my mind.. the only way to end this is to kill him, you will never ever find peace on this earth as long as uGugu is alive, He is untouchable….. Poison Him Yhoooo
Posted on: Tue, 30 Dec 2014 15:35:00 +0000
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