WARNING: If you do not like people talking about their feelings, deep thoughts and mental meanderings do not read further. You will find a lot of blah, blah, blah........ Its funny what people will find interesting. I always think my life is only interesting to the people that care about and love me. I try and pretend that everyone feels that way :). I like to bury my head in the sand about that. We all know though, especially sisters, that there is always that element of people (especially sisters) that are looking for things to gossip and speculate about. That was getting me down a little. Also, it seemed like life was flying bye me so fast that I didnt have time to think. So I needed to get away, a time out. Going to the beach didnt work out, its raining and my cars acting up, so I took a drive through the back roads and visited a couple wineries, tasted a little, parked the car and looked at the view and read, and thought and wrote about the things bothering me. It was so nice. Its so beautiful around here, even when its raining. I drove through old growth forest that was the most beautiful green, and parked on top of hills overlooking the valley. Jehovah knows how to make beauty, it really just settles all anxiety. I read again the chapter on Hannah in our Imitate Their Faith book. And if youve ever been anxious about something, praying for something, or bothered by gossip and speculation, this is what you should read. Hannah endured jealousy and gossip, was misjudged by someone that in our time would have been an elder, and was having a hard time dealing with her anxiety. But, she made Jehovah her best friend, she poured out her heart to him, never doubting that he was listening, and then, this is the key for me, she trusted him. She didnt know how things would turn out, but she felt relieved because she knew it was in Jehovahs loving hands. I realized when I read this that I can be like Hannah., Im not the girl who had to try and please everybody anymore, Im solid in my faith in Jehovah. I care about the harm people can do with their tongues but Im not ruled by it. Im not going to be destroyed by every little wind or disappointment now. Im going to turn my troubles over to Jehovah because in a very personal way he has been there to help me again and again, as I believe he will be for all those loyal to him. Im going to keep my heart open and continue to be me and learn patience and obedience. Hannahs prayer in 1 Samuel 2 is a beautiful piece of poetry about her absolute faith in Jehovah and also a warning for those whos motives may not be kind. Its very faith strengthening. These are the thoughts that went through my mind when I got away from all the distractions and finally had time to meditate. I think others get bothered by these same things.
Posted on: Sun, 04 May 2014 03:25:15 +0000
Trending Topics
Recently Viewed Topics
© 2015