Well been in a numb state of bein..majorly stressful day yesterday..for so many reasons...n through things of yesterday i got answers to questions ive had for a while...i think ive already knew but sometimes u just dont want to be right..n the reality of it all..hit me like a ton of bricks..ive still got knots in my stomach from it all...im mentally just worn down..sometimes it doesnt matter how hard u try..it doesnt matter how much u try to help..it doesnt matter how much u care..it doesnt matter how much time spent or goin out of ur way to do what u can..it doesnt matter if u have the biggest heart in the world..n doesnt matter that u wear urself down to do the best that u can...it wouldnt matter if u were the most amazin person in the world..sometimes all that is not goin to matter..or be noticed or be cared about..n in some situations..nothin..at all is ever goin to be good enough..its like all the good hearted people that try to do the best they can to help n do the best they can with what they have..they always seem to be the ones that get trampled on n hurt the most..n its the ones that dont try with anything that have it ok..they seem to be the ones that get the honors of it bein enough..n not havin the boat rocked..they seem to be the ones that get the help they need with situations n positions they r needin help with...its always that way it seems..if u love to much u get hurt..if u help to much..u get hurt...if u trust to much..u get hurt..its all crazy..n just insanity..but what can u do..just got to keep on doin the best that u can...just got to keep on goin..cause i know everyone already knows this..but just because u try to do nice..doesnt mean others will ..n just because u have an heart..doesnt mean others do..n just because u would be willin to go out on a limb n sacrifice things..doesnt mean others will..but thats just life..n just have to continue with bein who u r...if u get knocked down..n even though it hurts like hell..just got to get back up..just got to take the bad with the good...hold on to the good...n brush off the bad..n even though its hard cause sometimes the bad just settles in a lil too deep..u still just got to brush it off n continue on with ur chin up n boots on..everything always gets worse before it gets better..hold on to ANYWAYS..cause through all..no matter what..no matter what life throws for me to carry..some things will n never change.. just got to hold on n get through the hard roads of life.
Posted on: Wed, 17 Sep 2014 19:00:34 +0000
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