Well in the last year since my dads been gone Ive started a new career path and taken risks I never would have done before. The woman Ive loved more than any other I attempted to try and get back. It didnt happen but I think dad would of been proud of me taking the risk and putting myself all the way out there for once. He wouldnt want me to live in the past and to live with wondering what if. He would have wanted me to be happy and to chase all my dreams. I hope when I see him again he says hes proud of me and all that I did or atleast tried to do. While we was waiting at hospice for the funeral home to come and get him I took my turn sitting by his side and I played him this song. It said perfectly I how I felt and still feel. He would have told me he hated me being upset over her but he would be proud that the love I had was real and was true always. He would have not wanted me living in the past longer than I should have. Knowing dad he also would have said it was her loss because he knows I will always love her in some way but mainly he would have understood how I felt and hugged me, told me to keep my head up and look forward. So thats what Im going to do from now on.
Posted on: Fri, 17 Oct 2014 09:33:20 +0000