Well, its been a while since I posted any thing so I thought Id give an update. Today was hump day other than because its Wed, its hump day for Bobby because he has had 15 treatments and he has 15 more to go which is truly a blessing. As I sit here in my backyard & look around Im wondering where the days and weeks have gone. When we started this way back in Aug. we were still in the throes of summer. It was so hot you could not sit out here but now, today, there is a nice cool breeze that blows across me. When I sit here way back in early Aug when this journey began my garden was so green and in full swing. Now, I sit here and the garden has all died. Just a few butterbeans & a little okra remain. I look around me & I see that fall has arrived with its plethora of leaves that looks like the pallete of an artist beginning to start a masterpiece and then I remember it is a pallete and God is the artist and his masterpiece will be completed very soon when the forests are wearing their most glamorous cover. Back before I knew he was sick when he was in the garden I was here with him and if I was out here he was with me. We were inseparable. Doing everything together and being with each other from sun up to sun down but now I sit here alone and the quiteness is deafening. Nothing but the sound of the trucks going down the highway with their wares or the sweet song of a bird and I think to myself, this is the way it will probably be. No soulmate to talk to just aloneness and quite. This summer even when he was not out here he would come to the door every now and again and say, Baby, where are you? Are you alright? Dont you let yourself get to hot out there. I would get annoyed because he did it so often but now the door doesnopen and all I here is quiteness. I want to here him say, Baby are you alright? Dontlet yourself get to hot now. I dont know what Id do if something happened to you. I know God has his reason and though I know part of them I dont understand the possiblity of taking him away from me. In the morning when he first gets up I see glimpses of my Bobby, my soulmate, then we take him over there & let them radiate him and burn my Bobby out and then hes gone again till the next morning when I see those brief moments of normalcy. I wonder when these next 15 treatments are completed will my Bobby be back or will he be this stranger forever. Im sorry if Im bringing anybody down but this us so cathartic for me and I think I need this catharsis. On a good note he is improving, his appetite is good and hes gained a little of his weight back. Now the ball is in Gods hands. It is His decision to prevent a recurrence or to take him home. Keep Bobby & our family vigilantly in your prayers and my God richly bless anyone who has sent a prayer on his behalf or done anything to make things easier for Bobby or our family. Know that you are appreciated and you are loved.
Posted on: Wed, 16 Oct 2013 18:45:20 +0000