Well, today is our little guys Birthday. SodaPop, Ethan, E, or what ever you want to call him...is 2 years old today. This one is an emotional one to me. First and most importantly, it is a look back on the past 2 years. When people find out that you are about to have a child, they always say the same thing--it goes by so fast, and you sit there thinking yea yea yea, i GET IT already, it goes by fast, I have heard this a hundred times now. Well, then you find yourself being that same guy. You find yourself saying man, this is going by so fast.....and it is a little sad, mixed in with a little awesome. We have watched him grow into his own personality, watched him now try to feel us out as parents, watched him have a great time in life in general, and noticed how happy he has helped make ours. The day Ethan was born--I instantly saw the world different. I thought I knew how life would be after having our son, and I was pretty close, but I still did not fully comprehend how you can instantly start living for someone else. My perspectives changed, my goals changed, and my heart grew much larger. My eyes suddenly focused more on myself, and I gained a whole new level of self reflection. Secondly, this day is made more emotional, because for a split second on the night of his 1st birthday party--I didnt think I would be around to see him have his second. When my car accident happened that night, after his party, while I was at a pinnacle moment of happiness in my life, a day in which I got to see my son turn 1 year old.......... I thought my ride in his life, and my wifes life was over. The accident happened so fast, and the second it was over--I was left patting myself on my different extremities, all to realize I was not only still alive, but mostly still in one piece. The only part that has sucked from all of that, is that I still have a bunch of back and hip issues/pains, but I AM ALIVE! The funny thing is, while I was in the back of the ambulance, on my way to the hospital, I was smiling from ear to ear, and the paramedics asked if I was OK, and wondered why I was so happy. You see, for that quick moment, I thought I was about to die on one of the happiest days of my life, and to know that I still get to be on this ride with Ethan, and Afton, thats all that matters. The physical pain that I may have, is nothing to the pain in missing out on this life I am living. So, again, today is a BLESSED day in the Brown household. One that we get to look back on and see how far we have came, and to see where we are going, and to make sure that we are enjoying the ride along the way. Ethan, daddy loves you, I hope you enjoy your birthday party that your mom is working so hard on, and your playground that I am building for you. Afton Brown, this day also celebrates you. You have been the best damn parent for the last 2 years, and Ethan, and I, are both VERY lucky to have you in our lives. I love you. Pictures added for personal perspective.
Posted on: Fri, 25 Jul 2014 12:38:48 +0000
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