When Jayden asked me to marry him, he gave me this necklace. It symbolized what was then our future family, centered in Christ. The four diamonds represented me, Jayden, my son C.J. and the daughter we would adopt one day. Choosing a ring later became a no-brainer when we found this one. The center stone is actually four small diamonds, set together. We believed that one day we would have a little girl and we could show her that necklace and that ring and say, See? We wanted you in our family all along. Its simply surreal to look in my daughters eyes tonight and know that she was the one we were already waiting for. Many of you know that I buried my first child. David was born still on October 23, 2003. He would have been 11 this Thursday. I lost three more little ones in 2008, 2009 and 2010 and am no longer able to have any more children. My 9-year-old son, C.J., spent YEARS fervently and faithfully praying for a baby sister. He always said a brother would be okay, but he really wanted a sister. Though I desperately wanted to adopt, it was not an option to me at that time due to reasons beyond my control. I would explain to C.J. that I couldnt have any more babies and he would respond every single time, But MOM! Remember HANNAH? She wanted a baby soooo bad and she prayed every day and God gave her Samuel! God can do ANYTHING! *See 1 Samuel* I would always agree that God can do anything, but those conversations left me feeling so sad for him. I vividly remember believing that this would be his first lesson in how God does not give us everything we want. **How incredibly humbling it is to me now to realize that the lesson was mine to learn.** When I met Jayden (just two years ago this past Sunday), one of our first conversations revolved around how we had both wanted to adopt for as long as we could remember. He never batted an eye over not having biological children if he married me. Instead, we began talking about the little girl who would one day be part of our family. We were married after just 3 1/2 months. 6 months later, God dropped Emmy into our family with no warning! Lol! She was just 3 days old when we brought her home from the hospital. Yesterday, she turned 14 months. This last year has been hard, but so very blessed. I cant wait to tell our Emmy what an amazing miracle she is and how desperately her mommy, daddy and brother all wanted her. All three of us have prayed for this child for many, many years. To see God weave Jayden, C.J. and me together just in time to take in this precious angel has built my faith like nothing else I have ever experienced. The reality is that God DOESNT give us everything we want. No loving father would. But he DOES still work miracles. And he loves to give good gifts to his children. And he really loves to show off. Hes done it BIG TIME with this angel-faced daughter of mine. I cant thank all of you enough for supporting my family through this roller-coaster journey of ours. It has meant the world to us, and we will never forget it.
Posted on: Wed, 22 Oct 2014 02:09:45 +0000
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