Wow...Tammy Meade reminded me early this morning that it was a year ago today that the lives of a few hundred people would change forever. ..we found out that in about 2 weeks wed no longer have jobs..Some of us who had been working together for almost 30 years would no longer be together. It has been a very tumultuous time for so many of us...Ive learned a lot about myself. ..Ive gained friends I never had before...Ive lost friends I had for 26 years...theyre busy getting their lives in order...people I spent more time with than my own family. ..they were family. ..they are family...I cant believe how much has changed for me...how drastically different my priorities are now...how empty I feel at times without all the union- delegate- drama. ..The representing- my- coworkers -thing...The phone calls on my days off about the drama on the unit...and then again theres a sense of peace I havent ever felt. ..I question it often. ..when youre so used to being uncomfortable youre not quite sure what to do with the sudden lack of it!!!!...Ive been blessed with a job that is so totally different than what Im used to...took a huge paycut..have to pay for my benefits. ...have to set an alarm now that Ive joined the Mon to Friday day shift grind...but Im grateful. ..Im also sad and feel incredibly bad for all of my Hollliswood family who has yet to find work..I pray everyday that they are blessed with jobs that suit them and make them happy. ..Each time I hear of one who has been blessed I pray again to say thanks...its amazing how much weve all grown and learned..but .I can still feel that sense of dread and fear I felt one year ago..its still so real...i dont think i want to forget it...cause that will lessen the importance of its meaning. When i think back i remember how .my family and friends outside of work couldnt believe how freaked out I was...theyd never seen my so vulnerable. ..so scared..e to think of it..I hadnt either...I never ever took that job for granted. ..I couldnt understand how it all could be happening. ..I thought of so many patients who confided in me their despair over the years...and how I always tried to imagine how they felt....yet nothing compared to how I felt a year ago...I dont think Ive ever been so impacted by any event in my life. ..I actually feel like it was an opportunity to grow...and stop running in circles...and figure out whats really important. ..my life will never be the same..but....I think its better...Ive had an opportunity to get to know people I never knew yet saw n worked with every day for decades...I found out that some folks werent really who I thought they were...Ive been able to spend time with some who Ive always wanted to socialize with but couldnt cause of conflicting schedules...and have been able to spend time with some incredible leaders who otherwise would not be sharing a shot or a mojito with me had we all still been employed together! !!. And theres still some folks who I have yet to spend time with but thats cause theyre getting their lives on track and I understand. Im really grateful for my new friendships and those old friendships that have been enhanced despite our misfortune one year ago...I will never forget today...or the day we watched the last patient leave when Hollliswood closed....I think about all of you and will always have my work family in my heart...and in my prayers...love you all...
Posted on: Wed, 06 Aug 2014 22:25:08 +0000
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