Wow, feeling a little emotional today. You see, its my birthday. I turned 45 today. A little over a year ago, August 2013 as a matter of fact, I was diagnosed with advanced breast cancer. Stage 3 cancer at the tender young age of 43. My daughter was 3 my son was 9 and I was scared out of my mind. I turned 44 that September and for my 44th birthday i was given a double masectomy as my birthday gift and chemo was my birthday cake. It was the hardest year imaginable, for me and my family. I cannot tell you how many times I questioned my existance, my faith, my fortitude and sometimes even Gods love. We had no idea if the chemo would work or if the surgery would remove all traces of my cancer. We did not know if i would get to see this birthday, my 45th. Today is my 45th birthday. I am here, still alive, and with you. I will never have another normal, wish I wasnt getting older, wish i could forget I am a year older, birthday. No, not me. Every birthday, from now on, will start as it did this morning. Waking up with grateful tears in my eyes and then sliding slowly off my bed, directly to my knees, in thoughtful prayer. I will then proceed throughout the day in complete wonderment, almost like a high, of my surroundings and truly see the beauty that we pass by everyday without a second glance. I will be continously thankful for the many blessings so many overlook, but I have been given and look in astonishment at the perfect faces of my children and family. I will appreciate every single moment of my special day, for i will truly realise it as a gift. What a divine treat, being given the ability to live another year, breathe life for 365 more days, or see 12 months of bright white full moons. I am truly blessed. Thank you God, for the one more year you allow me to walk on this earth with my loved ones. Love and thanks, Janelle
Posted on: Thu, 25 Sep 2014 23:13:16 +0000
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