Yesterday I called my mom..and we had a relatively concerning conversation, which doesnt happen often, but of course, with her being mom, she really shed some light on my personality in which I need to change, like yesterday. I have a hug problem with the timing I have in relaying messages. Many times I have needed something, or even wanted something, to be done but the time in which I relay this desire or necessity tends to throw a huge monkey wrench in other peoples plans.. and it complicates everything. With that as well, im typically a sarcastic douche in my everyday life with close people... but usually in a funny way. Thats not my personality but when its offense, I hit hard. Do I mean to be? Not at all, especially toward my elders. On top of thaaaat, I have a huge problem with self-entitlement. Its not in my mental programming, I swear it, but the way I do things and treat some of my family members and my girlfriend at times...its just not right. I do things and have the audacity to literally expect something the way I think of It immediately regardless of how they feel is just plainly wrong. Its selfish and it really shows my lack of concern, respect, and appreciation for these people. Another, and maybe the last general problem that I can think of that I have is that I make too many commitments. There is a bar that I have been given to live up to. Its rather high...being a being who is extremely competitive in nature, I tend to set goals superseding this bar with the Intention of making people proud, but instead letting them down. I do this a lot. A few years ago, I wouldve hated being called out about these things that I do.. even to a point of arguing with my elders intensely about the matter and looking back on it, its rather dishonoring to the several sets of parents that I have, because they did not raise me that way at all. I have accepted these faults I have as truth and I am changing those ways, humbling myself as a person and working to do everything I can to better my relationship with my family, my friends, and my girlfriend. I would go into precise detail of things I am apologizing for, but since this a personal matter involving other people of my family that I am posting on a social networking site, I think Ive come close enough to the boundary of whats appropriate to post and when ivr gone to far. So with that, I propose a sincere and rather formal apology to R. Cherie Montgomery, Feq Simmons, Vince Simmons, Abby Elaina Hill and Anthony Mirville for any emanates of selfishness and self-entitlement expressed to you as well as any moment I have not kept to my end of a bargain or just simple and plain disrespect I have projected toward you. There have been multiple accounts of me requiring people to do waaay to much even when others are extremely tired,or its in an untimely manner disregarding the fact that other people have things going on in their lives as well, usually much more than I do in mine. So again, I sincerely do apologize for the way I have treated you.. It is rather unbecoming of me as not only a man, but a potential role model and person, and I could only ask for your forgiveness.
Posted on: Fri, 29 Aug 2014 13:28:51 +0000
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