coming to the realization that I cant keep letting people hurt me, I cant keep risking my life to try to keep everyone happy. I do my best to keep my kids happy and healthy and thats all I need to do. I wake up to them during the night when theyre thirsty, hungry, in pain or simply cant find their dummies, no matter what Im there, ready to make them feel better. I change every nappy, i wipe every runny nose. I bath them every second night and when needed, I play peekaboo and make myself look like a complete idiot to make my little girl smile, I have tickle wars and play silly games with my little man to hear him laugh uncontrollably. I take them to the park and for walks, we do drawings and have naps together. I do their washing and dress them in clean dry clothes everyday. I feed them when theyre hungry and try to make them eat even when they arent. I give them panadol and hold them tight when theyre not well and in pain, I check their temperature and take them to the doctors when they need to be taken, I do their hair and make their beds, I teach them new things and watch as they learn. I kiss them goodnight every single night and tell them how much I love them atleast 20 times a day. My children will never have to fall asleep without knowing how Im so proud of them and nothing will ever change that. I wipe away their tears and i watch them as they giggle. Im always there ready with my camera to capture every special moment. I take too many pictures and have a million videos. We laugh together and we cry together and every moment is absolutely perfect. All I want and all Ive ever wanted is happiness for my kids, because they deserve all the happiness in the world. Theyre so innocent and pure and a little freddo frog or a simple game of chasey makes their entire day and the worst thing that could happen to my 2 year old is hearing the word no lol. I wish they could stay this little and never have to feel any pain greater than a grazed knee. I wish i could protect them forever. I cant imagine losing this and I wont let it happen. Kyle Jesse and Aleeya Marie you two mean more than I could ever tell you in words or actions, mummy loves you both more than anything in the whole world. your smiles light up my life. My beautiful little rays of sunshine. I need you more than you will ever need me đź’ś Im so sorry for what my little ky had to see today. I wish i could be a normal person and get upset and emotional without almost dying. I can not have another stupid seizure and risk not waking up to see my beautiful babies smile again. I wont miss out on watching them grow up No matter what anyone thinks or says about me, I am a good mum! So if anyone doesnt have anything nice to say, dont say anything at all. Im doing my very best. And thats all I can do. đź’ś
Posted on: Tue, 06 Jan 2015 07:47:19 +0000