hmm...what did i do now?...say now?............to deserve the total ignore......she wouldnt even look at me............even in our direction.........studied indifference.....wow....what did i do/say now.....to earn this??...........the more we do not communicate directly.........the more the gap in our understandings....the more the confusion....the more the errors in judgement..........but....she just seems so mad at me..........at least tell me....what did i do...........give me a chance to understand...what did i do that was so wrong......that you went from being next to me.........to this.....really.....do you give up on people you like...friends..family...that easily?........dont i get a chance to reflect.....explain.....? on friday....i rode in...only and only for you.......the "maybe for me" good morning....giving me hope.........dying to show you.....dying to talk to you....disappointed at not being able to see you throughout the day..respecting your need for keeping a distance from me...........especially disappointed at not being able to see you on the way home..........heard you say unless i misheard..you are leaving early....3:15.......planned my day accordingly...had an appointment at 4:00.....planned on leaving here early with you......waited with my bag packed........but guessed you were caught up........saw your class being dismissed...waited outside till 3:37...getting late...but waiting...........ultimately felt that maybe you dont wanna see me.......plus was in full view fo everyone...all packed up....and not going...not like a car...where i can pretend to be doing stuff......already being asked...hey u were gonna elave early...why arent u going.......... what did i do now Shake?...........dammit...why cant you just talk to me ...once...so we can clear everything up...........understand each other...expecations.....the more time we lose.....the more the misunderstandings...surely you understand that................ i should ve said it...when you asked.............i shouldve............told you....i love you...but was just confused.....if she wants me to say it....if she likes me...why wuld she say no.......... dont know what you want...for sure....................but as i said before....ready for anything............ look where......this situation...is leading us.........degenerating into this...into confusions and explanations...........we have beeen doing this your way...for the last year.....can we try my way....once.........can we just have one open honest communication................just you and me.....talk it out...........face to face... one.....
Posted on: Mon, 26 Aug 2013 16:28:51 +0000