last night I kept thinking were going on an Alaskan cruise this Sunday for 7 days I should be excited but my heart is feeling pain and sorrow, whats wrong with me ? I thought, then in my sleep I had weird dreams of me owning vending machines and they were doing very good, when I opened them up someone had put a red scorpion in each one, causing people not to buy anything from them. so I put on a thick glove and took them out and put them in a jar, then I thought what should I do with them. put them in my competitors machines, or kill them, then I kept hearing Behold the lamb of God, weird huh. ok so when I woke up this morning, I kept thinking about the behold the lamb of God thing, I think it says behold the lamb of God ,who takes away the sins of the world, if it doesnt thats what I thought anyway, so I realized I had been watching stuff on this muslim leader who when asked if he wanted to kill all Christians, he kept answering with all the wrongs the united states had done. He never answered the question just ranted on about the evil united states, I became afraid for my grandkids after hearing his rants and the delusion that drove him. I was distressed over the state of the world and all the evil in it. so how can I be excited about an Alaskan cruise . so then I got up and took a shower, I thought about how Jesus said dont meet evil with evil. and I realized thats what the Muslim guy was doing and all it did was make him evil. then I thought how I cannot stop meeting evil with evil, how my heart and nature wants to meet evil with evil. how on some rare occasions I guess Gods spirit in produces mercy for others but most of the time I want to dispel all evil. Ok this is where the behold the lamb of God came in, I realized that He Jesus takes away the sins of the world, not me sid. then I thought once again like the A A book told me, my problem again is I play God rather then rely on Him. this made me think that I thought I had grown spiritually like on a scale of 1 to 10 ten being the highest, I was an7 but now I see that Im still in the minus numbers, not even up to 1, then I thought abut my actions and the actions of these radical Muslims, which if you read in history is not any different then the Christians who went out and killed others because they didnt believe like then did like in the crusades. I realized the problem with religious people who believe in their beliefs and not necessarily in the Living God. think that God has no power, that without our help He can do nothing, that is our job to remove sin from the world, and of course sin is those who dont believe the way I believe, by watching that Muslim leader proclaim his right to play God rather then rely on Him. that hes no different then me. lost and delusional, I mean didnt even the highest religious leaders defy and Kill the same God they supposedly served, and in the end wasnt it really their own self interest their own beliefs they were protecting
Posted on: Sat, 30 Aug 2014 18:06:46 +0000
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