marriage social media is a good spot to rant, vent etc., good and bad. Id call this one good. My dad had cancer, fought for six years, the final year was incredibly hard on him and the family. Cancer with Parkinsons,and Leutys Dimentia stole away my dad. We watched him disappear, watched him have violent seizures, call for his mommy in the night and lapse into his past. Helping with your dads bowel movements in a bed pan at his home, or the indignant fall from his bed and no one able to get him from the ground until one of the boys arrived took its toll on all of us. A year before he passed, lacking sleep and struggling with daily activities I was diagnosed with depression. Its not nice, some suffer for incredibly long bouts , others less. The medication was for a short term but soon was tripled after my mom died a few months later, I found her in her bedroom unresponsive on her bed, she lapsed into a coma and a day later we watched and held her hand as Mom slipped away - obviously to see dad. I had told her in her non-responsive state they were going to apply some heavy medication and all would be right in the morning- I kissed her forehead and left. expecting a change in the morning. My sister called early panicky- Mom was comatose, her eyes were rolling back in her head in a repeating fashion, the visual haunts me to this day. She died that night - gurgling, we were urging the nurse to do something- she said it;s natural, itll be over soon- she passed with me holding her hand. We were all wrecked- Medication and rye held no solice. The title marriage is about my marriage. I have a good wife. Anyone who has suffered from depression can attest to the loneliness, the utter dismay, medication offers some relief, in my case I was depressed for two years. During this time, I became very self involved, couldnt cope, slept a lot, drank, had mood swings and unfortunately the person who suffered the most was my wife. A lack of caring and ambition is typical and the lack of emotional response as well. I cant imagine the frustration she must have felt over two years and the loneliness that would have been hers to bear. As God is my witness if there is any weakness, concern or problem in our marriage it could all be traced back to me. She was the strong one. I failed miserably in the role of a husband. She bore the brunt of a lot of lonely days, nights, and mood swings, and carried me. If there was any failings or faults in our marriage it was me. I want the world to know she is a good, strong, incredible woman. She was the good one in our marriage.
Posted on: Wed, 12 Nov 2014 21:37:10 +0000