the hardest part of my dad being in the hospital is the not knowing how much longer, or what they plan. Its fear of the unknown and its hard to function when you feel like your world is tipped upside down. He looks good, he is feeling better, but Im still scared. I go back to remembering my Mom in the hospital (very different, but still hard) and then to the time my brother was sick and the only finish line for either my Mom or Mike was death, no cure, no help, no miracles, just ALS. So after a week of being in my own thoughts, Im scared, I suppose its normal- lets just say growing up my dad was different, he drank a lot and wasnt always nice. I wasnt close to him for ages- I loved him, I just wasnt close to him. Then my Mom got kidney disease, I gave her one of my Kidneys, and then she was given the death sentence of ALS- Lou Gherigs disease. My dad and I had to become a team of sorts, and through that and Mikes death 3 years after to ALS- I had to step up, put the past where it belonged and really let him lean on me as much as he needed. Now I can say that the last 12 years when the journey started, we have gotten much closer, and I do look up to him and all the things he has changed for the better. He is a good man. He is weird, odd, um silly, off the wall, political, opinionated and more... and hes good! I just dont want to lose that, Im not ready. So tonigh Im praying for the fear to ease and for the doctors to figure out what they need to do. Austin Davis and family pleases pray for the same! everyone who would like to I would appreciate it very much, if you dont pray then, just a thought, or a silent moment, a well wish. - I love my Dad!
Posted on: Mon, 11 Nov 2013 02:23:48 +0000
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