what is on my mind today? i do not know anymore. what is the point to have a mind when all that comes from it destroys friends (if they were true friends anyway) see that is what i get for allowing a thought to get out. i even feel like backspacing and deleting what i just typed. my mind is not my mind it is always under reconstruction and i am even thinking of how my freakish self have been under scrutiny even before i was born. The torment from the ways of this world is tooo much to bare. but i know i do not stand alone. i am trying to share who i believe in but not sure of who would accept His names that i have been taught since birth to call Him by. Even when i was in a Free Will Baptist Church i was taught that it was ok to know Him by names that people of foreign lands knows Him by in their language. and i guess i may be upsetting people by even saying this. it reminds me how my ex and my brother wants to quiet me and cause me to doubt everything around and in me. I believe within my whole heart of the healing that is transpiring in my life and who is doing the healing. what are the rules on here? and just because i have a mouse in my hand does not mean i have power only my Father has power only He knows my heart and intentions to be true. i am sorry world you will not victimize me no more now i dare you to twist my words againg to hurt others that is what is wrong with things now twisting of others words to benefit the world. now i just want to lay back and hold my angel in my arms and dream of days when He takes us home. and if anyone thinks i am talking bad about them say so but i only mentioned how i feel and think cause that is what is asked. no one else gets jumped on so dont jump on me. and i am told that i am no outcast but show me prooof that i am not. but i believe i am dead to this world and flesh that my home is not here but up there with my Father. just read all of this before criticiing it.
Posted on: Sat, 05 Oct 2013 12:55:37 +0000
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