you know. yes i am fat, i have always been fat sense i was little. I was reminded that i wasnt a size zero trew out the whole time i was in school. Even sitting here typingi rember the things people told me. "jenny bell needs jenny craig" " beep beep beep" when i backed up. i was so self consious that i never wanted to tuck in my shirt because when i did i saw my fat rolling over. I would avoid groups of people because i was worried i would bump into them because i was so huge. I have had had people make a comment that when i sat next to them they felt the seat bending down with my weight. I have never wanted to wear shorts, dresses (i wouldnt anyway caz i can care less but still a reason) thank tops or anything that wasnt loose fitting. But (yes im still not super model skinny) looking back now i see how silly i was. imagining roll after roll of fat on me. sure im fat but im not to bad off, and i am (slowly) but surly losing weight. and truthfully to see someone so sad because someone pointed out they were not "light enough" or "just to many cheeze burgers" is well enough to put me off. so to everyone i love who and how you are. even if your my enemy i still admire you for being you and not succumbing to the "size" crises.
Posted on: Thu, 12 Sep 2013 03:38:11 +0000