2 nd November 2001. I reached the hospital just when the gynecologist was closing for the day. On seeing me...he said you are scheduled for CS tomorrow. .I said I had pain all over my body...I was feverish....can the Cs be done tonight....did the ultra sound...I heard the beat of my daughters heart...the dr. Said you both are fine...gave me an injection..sent me home....that night ....later...as I sat on the chair to do my isha prayers...I felt something pull me as if cut through me....from my navel..I screamed..asthaqfirullah......and then...there was nothing.....my belly was weightless...something was different. .next morning. ..I went to the hospital as on schedule for CS...the nurse felt...the no heart beat status...I was....giggling...why I did not know...I did not want her to panic...I said see she is kicking here...here...baby is kicking alive...but I knew......the nect scan...I saw how my raaniya was in my uterus...I knew.....she had left.....I tried yo strangle the dr...who delayed the CS..I remember screaming...your dorry is not enough.......and then all hell ...broke lose...me being a gestational diabetic....Sugar was sky rocketing....septicemia. .....the struggle between my spouse and loved ones...was chaotic. Suddenly I saw my doctor and spouse enter my room....I overheard...give her enough pain killers...any way...she is packing up....let it be as pain free as possible. So I had a dead baby inside me...multiple health complications....and I was dying. I saw a class mate of mine..enter and burst to tears..I understood. ...death was perhaps near. Significant others...one half could not give consent to operate me in Male ....the other was saying...if you do not do the surgery here...I am leaving...and the dr was saying...I had no time. That was turning point....I do not know how or where I got tge idea..I called the dr...asked everyone else in the room to clear out...and said...I am not yet dead. It is a dying womans command...bury me and my child separately. ...for that operate me right now.In seconds..I was wheeled in..to the OT..at that hr...for me...no one ...nothing...mattered......and then I did not know what happened next. ...I saw a white tunnel of light...three tall white men in green turban...gently pushing me out of the tunnel. ..telling me..I have things to do....it was not yet my time... next...dr whispered she is dead...your sugar...bloods...everything has become stable. I never saw my second princess...who went to heaven...in that white light...I saw her being taken away......but..today had she lived I will have two daughters celebrating their birth eith me. One 14...the other 13 . Yet..Allahs plans are to be accepted. I thank Allah for enriching my life with such a circumstance. .today one in heaven..and one on earth ..both are smiling...with their mother...and celebrating their birth. I dared to share the most painful page of my life here to tell you...tragedies. ..can be overcome..we become stronger by them. Alhamdulillaahi...for all my blessings.
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