3/30 She heard what the doctor said loud and clear this isnt fair she doesnt share Said he found lumps in her breast That wasnt there What shakes her mind is shes feeling fine besides them sharp pains from time to time Shes a single mother.. just like her mother she really dont have time to die one daughter twelve the other 16, and she just met this nice guy time goes by its the suppression of depression even though it hurts she in church hoping for a blessing stressing family noticing this brown rice diet how shes becoming so quiet her mother ask she deny it you know mommy dont buy it now shes crying to her mother she expresses how she loves her looks her in the face saying we will get through this with gods grace She heard the doctor loud and clear we got to get those out of there he suggest we remove the breast her response was yes Time goes by she tries to be rejoiceful that she didnt die but not as rejoiceful as she should the absence of her double Ds gnawing away at her woman hood No longer does she look at herself in the mirror when she dries off from social functions she shys off consistently brushing guys off shes ashamed some of her clothes dont fit the same constantly reminding herself that shes blessed must be the stress these severe migraines pains in her chest so bad she wants to cry this unbecoming numbing on her left side her youngest daughter joked about her memory getting shorter She heard the doctor loud and clear told her sit down pulled up he chair its been three years of remission so what ever hes about to say she really dont want to listen he said.. im afraid we found something in your head what we first thought to be shadows are really tumors instead her question.. How soon will i be dead? He looked at her and said see.. thats the thing we can treat this with some will and Chemo i think we can beat this time blows by she heard the doctor loud and clear its looking good she doesnt care three shades darker loss of hair she contemplates leaving her career her hair not returning her greatest fear she cant eat she keeps losing weight these sours on her mouth whats she really hates she looks in the mirror even if the shit was out of her head already she screams at the mirror I FEEL DEAD ALREADY!!!!! time goes by only money left her childrens college funds reflecting about how she wanted sons Those nights get lonely when it you and pain only it wasnt that she didnt value life its just that to her this wasnt life she kissed her daughters pictures and said good night She heard the doctor loud and clear a realization of her greatest fear maam.. you daughter is dead she just screamed like a woman in pain after what he said the irony it wasnt even the cancer in her head she purposely o.ded on prescription meds #morningpains
Posted on: Thu, 03 Apr 2014 13:15:00 +0000
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