5 kids. If you had told me when I was 18 that I would have 5 kids, Id have told you to quit playing :P I loved kids back then (just like I do now) but I thought maybe Id have a couple right after marriage then later in life Id adopt some. I wouldnt be a stay-at-home Mom. No Id be able to juggle my Mom title and my work title (and I did that for a while). But Ive learned through age and children and most of all the development of my faith that my plan isnt always the best. I think some may be able to relate with this next part. I had goals, and plans that I had to measure up to for my life to be good. Many times I would beat myself up because I didnt reach those goals. Of course in a perfect world, Id have a vehicle that ran smoothly, a job that paid well, an always clean and organized house, a nice fit body, and Id never be late. Id always sing in tune, and have the wittiest things to say. Id be able to juggle my love, my kids, my family, my friends, my hobbies and save all the animals and kids and women in need. Ah, but then I think of the rigidity that would entail. God has let me know in my current life that I cant be perfect but I can enjoy. I love what I have and what I can do. My messy house is warm and the kids are safe and no one is too freaked about spilling something on the couch, floor, table, or wall (because its all been done before and a towel is always at hand). I may be late sometimes and my truck doesnt always run, but God sent friends and family to lend a hand and I still get to enjoy life even if Im late. My voice may crack when I sing, but just like when my heart does, God comes along and makes it a beautiful mistake worth just as much as my purposeful plans. I do enjoy my time at home now while I can, because one day the kids will all be grow and out of it and Ill be in a different job wherever God has led me. I am enjoying right now and listening to what God called me to do and to be. So messy, late, and not at all as I pictured; I promise you I am the happiest Ive been in a long time. That is my testimony for you now. Dont worry it will change and I will be able to tell you what this time right now brought forth in fruit :)
Posted on: Fri, 14 Nov 2014 20:16:41 +0000
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