8 years ago I lost my mother. I remember the day as though I lived it yesterday. I was sitting in 3rd period and the office aid came and got me and said Miss Hill (assistant principal) wanted to see me. Walking down the hall I could not think of anything I did wrong.. what I was about to get into trouble for. Would never expected my sophomore year in high school I would be receiving the news I did. As I walked into the office and Miss Hill gave me a hug (very out of the ordinary- so I had no idea what to expect), she guided me to the conference room. As the door opened I saw my nana and my sister. The look in my grandmothers I felt something terrible happened to my grandfather.. then my sister jumped up and hugged me so tight and started crying. We sat down and I keep saying whats going on I honestly dont remember who said it but I just heard mom passed away this morning I believe my mind went blank, then stood up and said I had to stay at school. Walking straight to the bathroom, sitting in a stall.. I text my friend and told him and he didnt even know what to think because before walking to 3rd period we talked and I was frustrated for some reason because no one took me seriously..everyone thought I was joking. I told him I could tell people my mom died and no one would take me serious So how could I expected him to believe me now. We all went to lunch and when he saw me he knew. I dont know why I tried to stay at school but my aunt Tammy came and grabbed me from school and we went to the park to talk. It just couldnt sink in. I never saw her again. We had a very strange relationship. She had health issues that I didnt understand. Battles she was fighting amongst herself. We had our closer years but towards the end we got a little distant. Our last conversation wasnt one youd like to remember as the last and the fact I dont think I saw her in 2 weeks before her death was even a harder thing to grasp on too. I always have random memories floating around my mind... how she laid in bed with us and sung the most beautiful songs. Wed play cards, color, make those old beaded key chains that look like animals... But this year its different. I have been thinking about all the times she was there for me. The times she held me when I cried, comforted me when I needed and when I felt down she lifted me up. These are the most precious memories I have that I hope to never lose over time. I love you mom and miss you everyday. I know your looking down at my family and me and Id assume your proud of course.. And I know youd be calling Adalyn little red. Id give anything for Logan and Adalyn to have known you and papa. You both are always in my heart!
Posted on: Sun, 21 Sep 2014 16:35:42 +0000
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