After everything horrible thats happened since Ive been down here, to the point where its almost comical (car accidents, 10 relocations & almost homeless, rats popping out of toilets lol, cars & pickup trucks destroying my home, dad being sent to the hospital, my tires shredding two at a time, every couple of months among other things lol), I still have NEVER, not ONCE wanted to go home or give up. Everyone always tells me how tough I am and it shows much I must really want this. But giving up is not an option. I cant, like...I dont know, I cant even process that thought. That doesnt make sense to me. I have this really weird feeling, and Ive had a couple others say it to me too on their own, without me mentioning it, and they feel it too...I feel like Im in some kind of purgatory right now, just waiting...but knowing Im going to make it to my heaven and its just a matter of being patient with it. Whenever everything goes crazy, yes I get frustrated and discouraged, but it never lasts more than a day or two. Let me just deal with it and keep moving, whats next? I feel like there is something HUGE coming up in my future and Im on this insane rickety old train, and all I have to do is just hold on tight until my stop gets here, then I can jump off and have the the most amazing life, the life that Ive always dreamed of!! To me its not even a matter of PRAYING it works out, or HOPING the stars align for this to come true...i KNOW its going to happen. Its almost here. I just gotta hold on a little longer. My exit is a couple miles up...Im just stuck in traffic right now. But Im almost there.
Posted on: Fri, 21 Nov 2014 05:05:37 +0000
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