As I have said previously this page is NOT just about losing weight or healthy eating. This page is about a healthy Mind, Body & Spirit. I want to touch on the healthy mind aspect today. My post below shares with you my accomplishment of running a 1/2 marathon and discussed how I had to change my mindset. I want to take you through my story. Growing up I had loving and supporting parents, however they had very limited resources. Neither of them graduated highschool so as a result they were limited what options they had. We lived on the wrong side of the tracks as the expression goes. I always went to schools out of my district for an attempt at a better opportunity. I graduated highschool and they couldnt have been more proud. That was until a week later I went to them to say I was pregnant. Being a confused teen I was adament I was not going to be another teen satistic so I was going to marry Dave and love him into being a better person. Dave dropped out of school in the 10th grade, Dave had no job and no future. We were married a month after I graduated against the wishes of my family (but my family still supported the wedding and put together as best of a wedding as you can for the time period). When we got married I was working two jobs trying to support the two of us (thankfully my parents let us live there to help but insisted he get a job). After Xavier was about a year old we moved out into our own apartment. Well let me tell you things between he and I were not good to start, I felt fat, ugly and worthless and he was really good at encouraging those feelings. Once we were living on our own things started getting REALLY ugly. The arguing was non-stop, he quite his job and once again I was supporting the 3 of us on just my income with NO assistance from the county or state. Eventually I had enough and moved back home. I still held out hope it would make him open his eyes and be this dream husband I thought he could be....not even close. We were getting evicted (my name was still on the lease because we were married) so I was there for the weekend to move the rest of my stuff to my moms. Things took a very devistating turn. He was under the infulence of some sort of drug that I was unaware of and was acting very strange. As usual we started arguing and he threatened to kill me, put me in the trunk of my car and drive it off a bridge (like the Eminem song he claimed, for those of you that know that song). I continued packing etc. and the arguing continued. I finally walked away and went into the bedroom where Xavier (2) was sleeping as he was starting to get really violent throwing things etc. A few moments he walks into the room with a loaded gun. I cried and begged for him to put it away. By the grace of God he did. I waited for him to fall asleep and went back to my moms not telling anyone what happened. I was ashamed, mortified & scared. I started receiving threats from his family that they would find my son and take him from me & I would never see him again. It was at that point my fight with the court system began (as a matter of fact I just received a letter regarding a case involving him yesterday). Fast forward to today. I am healthy and happy. I have gone to group support for DV etc. to get me where I am today. It wasnt until after I got my mind right that I was able to be healthy in the physical sence. I met a wonderful man who adopted Xavier. We got married and we have 2 children of our own. Ladies what I am trying to express is it doesnt matter your situation or your past. Change starts with your mind. Please learn to love yourself, until you do things will be difficult. However, I am an example that we can break free from our chains and fly as high as we want to, you just have to believe it!!!!!! Make it a great day ladies, Ill check in later :)
Posted on: Wed, 05 Nov 2014 14:50:41 +0000