As many of you know our family has been experiencing so much devastation and heartache these last six months. Recently I was away with my sister Carlyn to take care of our Mother who experienced a horrific situation. The day after I arrived home after being there for 3 weeks the Doctor called to say that the damage to her brain was so severe that it was causing severe symptoms and would lead to an early death. So it became the quest to move to comfort care. Something I have come to know well with the recent passing of my son. Last Friday I received yet another call that has left me utterly shattered. She now has breast cancer too. I cannot even begin to describe to you the myriad of emotions I am experiencing or the feeling of being overwrought. It leaves you with a feeling of dread..or fear of what seems to be never ending tragedies. I have always tried to be strong, be a rock for my family through all of this. When my sister and I were there with our Mother I tried to stay composed, be a force of strength and support for my sister who was struggling so deeply being the eldest child, the feelings of responsibility and guilt. I worked hard to make people happy in moments of sadness and to shower love to everyone. Through all of these months I think I put me and what I was going through on the back burner. I wasnt numb as some people thought it was rather a self preservation tool if you will. Because I was so teetering on the edge of this cliff that was grasping me. It hurts me so bad to think that my Mother has yet another life threatening situation to go through. And the the thought of her suffering at all just tears me to pieces. I pray that she will be spared of any more excruciating pain. That we will find a way to get her closer to us in a hospice situation where we can be with her and fill her last days with Love and joy. And make sure she is treated and cared for properly during this time. I ask you my Friends once again to please pray for my Mother and our family.
Posted on: Mon, 07 Apr 2014 18:58:49 +0000
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