Boy, this is going to be a tough one. My cat, Spencer, is very, very sick. Hes only 10, but he started throwing up last Tuesday night. Initially I wasnt too concerned - cats throw up sometimes - but then he stopped eating and continued to throw up bile, so on Thursday morning, I took him to the vet. They took blood and urine samples, and mentioned there was some blood in his urine and that was likely causing the issues, and gave him a shot of antibiotics, expecting him to improve. The next morning, the vet called with very sad news. Spencer has FIV, which is essentially Feline AIDS, and given the absence of an obvious incidence of transmission, think he may have gotten from his mother, since hes been a strictly indoor cat for eight years. Despite the antibiotics, he has yet to resume eating, and when he drinks, he later vomits violently, almost screaming at times. Though we could do an ultrasound and look for a mass - lymphoma is common in cats with FIV - and then do surgery and hope to prolong his life, Spencer is a sensitive cat with a major fear of the vet, and it will only give us more time, not cure him. It is a miracle that he survived the weekend. He is increasingly weak and is starting to appear in pain when he walks, and hes climbed into the bathtub multiple times. I cant tell you how many times I said goodbye to him before leaving the house or going to bed. Still, Im having such a hard time deciding on whether I should have him put to sleep. I dont want him to suffer. I love him SO much. Hes been my constant for over a decade - through it all with me. In NYC, when I was essentially alone, he was there. When I had my babies, he loved them, despite it going against his personality. I am devastated at the thought of losing him, potentially after hes hung on all weekend, giving me hope. I know I have to make this decision alone, but I cant carry the burden on my own, and hoped by sharing, I would find some peace for a bit. I just love him so very, very much. I cant imagine saying goodbye, but I feel like we have to today. Such a sad decision ahead today, but I feel like I know what I have to do. Any prayers appreciated for peace for him, and for us. I dont know how to tell Ava when hes gone, though Ive been trying to prepare her.
Posted on: Mon, 13 Oct 2014 13:21:32 +0000
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