By the grace of God I am clean from substances, going on 8 months on the 7th of November on my sons Bday. I lived a life of Crystal meth(TIK) 4 nearly 4 years, I wont get into the horrors of my addiction I will merely tell you I lost a lot due to my addiction and struggled for many years with it. I can not believe the life I have been given in my recovery. Is there Life after Crystal Meth? You know I used to ask myself that very question until the 5th March 2013 that was the day I had an awakening unlike any other I was sitting on my bed crying was just tired could not stop,was spiritually broken,felt like I have nothing to live for anymore cause I was living for Crystal Meth and wanted to take my life.... but something inside my head told me to take one of those Our Daily Bread books and opened it up to the 5th day of March 2013, just to see if the reading for that day was coinciding with the day I was having, the bible verse for the reading of the 5th of March 2013 Read... I will restore to you the years the swarming locust have eaten. Tingles began to shoot through my whole body it was a feeling unlike any I had ever felt before And from that day forward I knew I was going to be ok. See Crystal Meth was a locust in my life just shy of 4 years. Its an amazing thing the way things end up happening and I have yet to even have a craving. Life does get better, just give it to God what ever that may be to you he made a promise to me with the I will restore to you he didnt say maybe he said I WILL and I do wholeheartedly believe. and I am now happier than I have ever been in my whole life for believing that promise......... I have since my recovery began been restored far more than I feel I deserve, I have my my life back, and I would not give up for the world, I value not only my recovery but myself as well, I have still have my Job,my family thou some of them gave up on me but God did not gave up, I can face my fears today,I can have normal conversations with people,I can go wherever I want to and not be paranoid scared people will notice I am high, I can spend time with my son(Priceless) and not think about my next Fix,I am the person today that he always thinks I am His Hero... I have been given so many things in my recovery, Yet there is nothing better than just having the peace of mind that comes along with just finding yourself, The life I lead today is unlike anything I myself or all those that know me ever would have thought. Im simply trying to say no matter what your struggle. There is a way through it to happiness, and the very start of that is to begin to truly and wholeheartedly begin to love yourself enough to make it happen. I have found so much in my recovery and Myself is one of the things. My recovery is amazing, and I will not give this up for anything, or most importantly anyone. Through God all things are possible. And I am living breathing proof of that.....Thanks for letting me Share.....Just for Today...it does get better....
Posted on: Wed, 30 Oct 2013 20:15:37 +0000