Chapter 12: Better Together Harrys POV To be honest I want to be with Niall. .It hurts to see him like this. If wed over back together, Im afraid he will cheat on me again. I just dont want to get hurt again. I dont want to resort to cutting again. Thats right I used to cut. Niall doesnt know. I dont want him to know. I wish he didnt cut himself because of me. He doesnt know how much he hurt me when he cheated on me. It was like stabbing someone with a knife. In 6th grade before I met Niall, I was my dads punching bag. Marcel was always his favorite. He got good grades and everything. I was not a good learner. My dad always called me ugly and fat. I felt worthless, and useless. Thats when I started cutting. I stopped talking. I stopped eating. My mum knew nothing about the beatings. People bullied me at school. They would tell me to kill myself. I did what made me happy. Cutting made me happy. One day my dad almost raped me. My mum had heard me screaming. She ran into my room. That week my parents argued alot. I stayed at my aunts house. Soon they got divorced. Thats when I went back to my mum. Marcel, mum and I packed our stuff and moved. A month later, Niall and his mum had moved in across from us. Thats when we became friends. Best friends. We did everything together. He even told me how he had a brother and that his dad was with Greg. Me and Niall instantly became friends. Then in 9th grade he told me about him being gay. I bullied him because I had feelings for him. Now here we are. I desperately want us to get back together. I know Ni does too. Im just scared. Niall doesnt know that I used to cut. Im planning on keeping it a secret. Marcel knows and so does mum. Hazz.. What are you thinking about? Niall asks from beside me. I had layed down and Niall cuddled into me. Nothing Hazzy? Yeah Ni What ya thinkin about? My past Can you tell me? uh-uh-um Babe, please? um. ok. Before we met, My dad would beat me up and one day he almost r-r-raped m-m-m-e. People at school bullied me. They told me to k-k-kill myself. I started c-c-cutting. Hazzy. Why didnt you tell me? I didnt want to tell you about my dad. I didnt want it to get between us I sighed defeated It wouldnt have. i wouldve still loved you. Ni. I Love you I said and leaned in and kissed him. He kissed back quickly. The kiss was full of love. Hazz. Do you still cut? No. I stopped when we became friends in 6th grade. You made me feel better about myself. I was happier with you. Do you..........um.... Niall, I want to be with you. I want us to get back together, but please dont hurt me again. I dont know what I will do. I promise, I wont hurt you. Will you be my boyfriend.....again? Of course. Thats all I wanted. We both leaned in at the same time. Our lips touched. Sparks fly. Nial had layed down taking me with him. I layed on top of him, kissing the living daylights out of him. We legs between his. His arms wrapped around my neck. My hands caressing his sides. I licked his bottom lips. He opened his mouth and I stuck my tongue into his mouth. I explored his mouth with my tongue. He sucked on my to[ngue making me moan. It was a passionate kiss. Nialls POV Yes!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Were together again. I honestly love him so much. I dont know why I even cheated on him. I was bieng stupid. Harry is my life. I cant believe Hazzas dad would do that to him. He so lovable and cute. Might I mention that he is absolutely smoking hot. Im happy that hes mine again. When we kissed, I felt like I was in heaven. Right now were just cuddling. He so cuddly. I love you Haz. I love you too baby. Can you promise me that you will not cut again.... Because of me. I promise Hazzy but baby promise me if theres anything wrong youll tell me and wont resort to cutting. I promise snowflake. **********next day at school********** At lunch Harry sat with us again. The boys knew that we were back together. Harry was happy to see the boys after 3 days. He was hesitant at first and I know he doesnt trust me. We were off to a slow start though. Harry didnt talk much due to the fact that he didnt feel comfortable around us anymore. Marcel was giving me the hurt-him-again-and-watch-what-happens look. I know I wont do it again because i love him and need him in my life. So harry? How is it going? You ok bro? Im fine We fell into an awkward silence. No one knew what to say. Harry looked at me and game me a small smile the didnt quite reach his eyes. We leaned in and kissed for a good minute before the boys started cooing at us. We were happy again.
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