Day 10 of Multiple Sclerosis Awareness Month! The Walking Dead. Yeah, no, I am not talking about the show (although its a good one) but about us MSers... The closer you see us to our moment of rising (for the day) the more dead we are. I admit I have seen some scary things with others waking up, but I am not talking about scary things, I am talking about things that still have blood pumping through it but decided to go AWOL from reality, like limbs...yeah, having a leg that decided to leave the light on, but have no one home... that sucks. There is a scientific thing listed somewhere about how the body paralyzes itself to keep it from acting out dreams, and those whose bodies dont get paralyzed have a tendency to sleep walk. That temporary paralysis usually wears off right before waking up, normally. But for MS, that temporary paralysis takes a lot longer to wear off, if at all. Our weaker side (yes there is always a weaker side, left, right, top half, bottom half) shows this tendency more than the other side. It drags, it acts out (spasms), it goes haywire (cold when the rest of the person is okay). It pretty much says Look, Dude. Not now, still sleeping. So shove off! and it gets really nasty when you push it to be awake. This morning, I wake up (normal time, same routine as every morning) and get out of bed... but today was different than other days. Today, I found myself on my floor... one moment on the bed, then stand up, then find myself between bed and wall on floor. Leg wasnt there. I had to wait until I could feel the almost always present tingling to commence before I even tempted to get up. The tingling sucks but when you have to rely on more than your normal 5 senses, you pick up clues from your body to recognize attendance of otherwise absent/uncommunicative limbs. What was once a very annoying symptom (the tingling is like being hooked up to that gag joke that vibrates when you shake hands... but its constant, and all over), becomes a norm and a way to verify what sight, feel, and/or hearing isnt cluing you in on. So the tingling returns, and I get up and turn off the stupid radio alarm (the reason I got up to being with). MS puts being like a zombie into perspective....And it garners a lot a sympathy from us MSers for those who become zombies... both are unasked for conditions!
Posted on: Mon, 10 Mar 2014 13:59:20 +0000
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