Dear Body, -- I am sorry for ignoring your hunger signals for so many years. -- I am sorry for making you drink disgusting diet shakes and eat tasteless diet foods. -- I am sorry for stuffing you with excess food and then shaming you when you were only responding to the starvation and self-hate that I was inflicting on you. -- I am sorry for comparing you to other women I knew nothing about and thinking you were supposed to look like them. -- I am sorry I thought of you as an object to gain approval and attention, rather than the amazing miracle that you are. -- I am sorry for hating every freckle, lump and bump on your skin. -- I am sorry for stuffing you into clothes that felt too tight and hating you when things no longer fit. -- I am sorry for making you wear high-heeled shoes that felt way too cramped and uncomfortable. -- I am sorry for criticizing you every time I saw your reflection in a mirror or a window. -- I am sorry for thinking you could not leave the house without wearing make-up. -- I am sorry for depriving you of rest when you were tired. -- I am sorry for pumping you with caffeine instead of listening to your natural rhythms. -- I am sorry you had to ingest dangerous substances because I wanted to fit in and look cool. -- I am sorry I made you exercise in ways you didnt even like. -- I am sorry I put you in situations you did not really want to be in. -- I am sorry I ignored your wise intuition and said yes when you clearly felt no. -- I am sorry I stayed silent when you nudged me to speak up, because I feared the disapproval and rejection of others. -- I am sorry I put countless cigarettes into your lungs because I didnt yet know how to handle stress or pauses in the day. -- I am sorry I spent so much time criticizing you that I forgot to say thank you and acknowledge your amazing senses, systems, limbs and organs. -- I am sorry I thought my value as a human being was entirely dependent on you.
Posted on: Sun, 21 Dec 2014 21:11:40 +0000