Dedicating this song to Monte Nguyen.. yesterday makes exactly a week since you left us. I still cant believe it. Its been very hard accepting the fact that youre gone and that Ill never be able to see you again.. when you were still here I took you for granted. I walked around with my head held high as if leaving your side didnt bother me at all but I want you to know that deep down inside I was torn apart from being with you and for you in every way that I can and also trying to deal with everything that was going on in my life. I really didnt know what to do and I shouldve turned to you instead of walking away.. when I heard the news it hit me really hard. Felt like my the weight of the world was on my shoulders and it came crashing down while my heart broke into a million pieces knowing that Ill never be able to see your face again.. There are so many words in my heart that are left unspoken... If I could go back in time, Id go back to the beginning where hurt never touched our hearts and Id never miss the chance to tell you how I feel and how much you really mean to me. Now I realize that its too late. Ill never hear your voice again, never get a text asking how me and Toby are doing, never get to facetime you to listen to you while you call Toby con and asking me if he is still cranky... i miss everything that has to do with you. Me and Toby listens to the two videos you made for me a while back. Brings back a lot of memories. I remember all the good times.. Sighs now Im living in pain and agony cause Ive lost you. You wont be around to drive me crazy or to go to Tobys doctor appointments. wont even be able to watch him grow but Ill keep the videos and pictures so that we will always remember your voice and the precious memories youve given to me. As Toby gets older Ill do my best to make sure he knows how much you love and miss him. Ive been telling him everyday for you. I even brought him over to the house a few times to meet dad and spend time with the family. Its not the same without you there but I know its what you been wanting. We know you are watching over us from heaven. Tell Toby to be a good boy and help him heal fast.. we miss you a lot and love you even more. Hope youre sleeping well in heaven xoxo our day will come where we will meet again so I wont be saying goodbye but Ill catch you later.. Love and miss you Monte, please forgive me for everything. Forever in my heart ♥
Posted on: Thu, 10 Apr 2014 06:09:37 +0000