Dying There is so much we do not know- particularly about the journey of the soul during those big transitions of birth and death. For the last year, visits to my father have been heart-breaking. Confined now to a wheelchair with advanced Alzheimers he responded to my presence by sobbing and begging me to Help! over and over. He was clearly suffering, and I took his call for help to be an expression of his desire to leave this life. And who could blame him? Recently my father had an infection and I was called upon to determine what level of medical care should be offered. I asked that he be given palliative care- care that would keep him comfortable but not keep him alive if his body was dying. The next week he rallied, seeming to shake off the immediate infection, but remained in palliative care. He was weaned off all medications. And then something new happened: he became very calm. Last week when my eldest son and I went to see him he was not agitated or crying at all. He also did not seem very present. When I spoke to him there was the briefest flicker in his eyes, and then he receded back to whatever was happening for him elsewhere. Hed just woken up from a nap and was lying in bed, deeply relaxed, . . .fading. . . shrinking. . . sinking into the bed, and (I imagined) physically returning to the earth. There was a new and different kind of ache in my chest to see him leaving, to not be able to connect with him, but I could not help but be relieved and grateful that he did not seem to be suffering as he had for so long. Trained in shamanic medicine Ive been honoured to be companion in the dying process for some, have left my body and journeyed with an individual who was on the edge of death. I know that there is often a process of going out and coming back, a time of wandering in the inbetween. It reminds me of birthing- probaby in part because today is my youngest sons birthday. Thirty-one years ago, he was born at home as planned, all twelve pounds and ten ounces of him. I was guided by a midwife who allowed that process to unfold and supported me in being present with my body wisdom to ensure safe delivery of this small (okay, not so small) new life. Each persons needs, abilities, resources and preferences are unique. But it occurs to me, watching my father and remembering my sons birth, that the processes of birthing and dying may be more similar than they appear, may involve things on a soul level that we cannot perceive. Acknowledging there is much we cannot know, it would seem wise to err on the side of patience and loving care, to allow the process to unfold with maximum support and minimum interference. I am filled with appreciation for the men and women who are caring for my father daily at the long term care facility where he lives. They do so with good humour and great tenderness. They are truly the midwives to his dying, and I am deeply grateful. Oriah House (c) 2014 (You can subscribe to Oriahs weekly blog at oriahsinvitation.blogspot.ca/)
Posted on: Wed, 30 Apr 2014 13:00:00 +0000
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