EUREKA!!!!! I have finally acknowledged what is wrong with me! Nothing! Since my triple survival of puberty, living with my crazy family, and missing my calling in science and the arts, I have acted appropriately and acceptably as defined by the masses. Recently, I realized I am hardly myself! I believe it has been more than a decade of sitting through strained conversations, being tactful, identifying and acting according to the social event at which I attended. I cannot tell you how simply BORED to death I was. But I felt obligated. Dear God what a word!!! Obligation. Doesnt that sound like paying taxes? You dont want to but you have to. Well, I no longer want to feel obligated. I want to be able to not only speak my mind which I pretty much do already, but I want to participate socially as I want, not what society dictates. I have done it far too long. For the most part in my small galaxy of friends, I am pretty much myself. Just ask those who put up with me, my friends. I behave, should I say, but am ever so much looser around them. Of course, I enjoy their company so I never completely let loose as to not scare them away, except with a couple of them, and certainly, I am in similar company as they fail to run for a safe haven. hahahaha Having made this grand discovery while having been concerned for the last few years it was my mind slowly leaving me, I feel so much weight off my shoulders, or perhaps I should say my brain. For the sake of the eyes taking in this post, however, I must still maintain a measure of decorum as to maintain a semblance of the norm. You never know. A potential employer may want to read my page. ;) .... You know the plus side of all this is that there are people out there with whom I put on as they do,(You know who you are), and I dont want to any more. Hmmmm...thinking about that is rather fun actually. I guess once they see the real me on my own turf then maybe they wont want to come around again or call me ever again. I rather think I would like that. heehee To begin relinquishing the yucky standards set by our boring society of cookie cutter humans, I would like to begin bragging about myself from which I have refrained forever. My first egotistical flaunt is to inform the readers that in elementary school was IQ registered 189. The ridiculous school gave me an award for it. Can you imagine? I would have much rather had an expensive microscope, but they gave me an angelic brass reward. Yes, I have it packed up somewhere. Now in response to this post I would like for a psychiatrist or some professional explain to me from the tests results of decades of research how ones IQ evolves OR dissipates with age or life experiences. You simply cannot rely on internet reading sources for reliable information.
Posted on: Thu, 25 Sep 2014 04:05:52 +0000
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