Earlier this week I received a delivery in a brown-wrapped package.. I was a bit hesitant as I had not recently ordered anything, until I saw the name on the package; curiously I opened up the package and it contained a gift, it was a peace offering of some kind, or if you will, from someone that took my kindness for weakness and my heart for granted, someone who hurt me badly, who took me for granted time and time again.. Someone who used me, abused me and was unfaithful to me ,and had the audacity to paraded other men in my face at my work place even in spite of me.. This person pushed me to the limit that I have never known before in my life, betrayal to a degree I had never known existed... This person lied to me repeatedly, manipulated, conned, and casted me aside like yesterdays trash and left me in my darkest hour... This person ran from me and their troubles too, not only did they see me as a burden ,but I was nothing worthwhile too their life but I was less than ideal for their life all the while telling themselves that they deserve and could do better than me.. Even after walking out, this person continued their deceit, their manipulation and falsities, sending me messages and pictures of other men, pictures of recent purchases leading up to insinuations of their new extravagant and worry-free lifestyle, all of which of course turned out to be lies and indicative of the emptiness and despair this person has only begun to suffer… All of this was done in an effort to make me jealous, to continue to hurt me, all efforts to keep me down, indeed in trying to keep me as a” backup plan” as a “safety net” just in case things just didnt pan out, true to her manipulative, narcissistic-behavior or if her plans fallen through she still thought that she still had a chance at me--not realizing she had already lost me a long time ago. Then to top it off this individual continues to harass me and attempts to apologies by not even accepting responsibility for her awful behavior acting with empty promises, halfhearted apologies, with negativity, malicious bold faced lies in justifying her behavior on why they left in the first place -- not to mention insulting people and tearing down all the new things in my life that are bringing me happiness and fulfillment with no compassion or respect to what is of value to me and my growth as a humble man. Most of you know me, pretty well and the depth of my compassion, loyalty and honest character, even as a friend ,if I had done something wrong to you I would have the respect to extended the olive branch to you face to face as a peace offering to say I was sorry…In this day and time good people with character and morals is becoming harder and harder to find so when you do we as humans should value those that we can trust and depending... as humans we put stock in only the things we can by, the most valuable things in the world are free in life, but most people have it backwards, its people we should value not thing.. So what is the value of what good people are really worth to you? How would you show your respect? How would you extended the olive branch as a peace offering to Say I was sorry, for lying to you, for using you, abandoning you and trying to destroy your heart...In effort to make up for your wrongs how would you say you were sorry? Say; helping me out if I needed? Like give that person, Money? Food? Clothing? A gas card? How about a tear-stained Hallmark card filled with apologetic verses in your own handwriting --better yet delivered in person inconsolably on bended knees with your head held low?? Thats where I would start...if I had hurt someone who I had loved me that much... What this person owes me is not of monetary value, not something tangible or reproducible, not for sale at the finest department store they run across, What this person owes me is beyond repayment, their actions unforgettable yet forgivable only by the grace of God as He has forgiven each of us and heeds us to do the same in His name even when we are hurt so deeply by people such as the sender of this package. This person sees differently...they have taken it upon themselves to place a value on what it would take to get me back to make me happy...they have even taken it one-step further and rationalized their behavior dismissing all accountability and assuming no responsibility for the turmoil they quite intentionally caused... convincing themselves that this package will force me to forgive all wrong-doings and transgressions...surely when I opened it all would be forgotten, no more apologies necessary, I would call and beg to be back in their lives once again how lucky I would be to receive this gift, this extension of the proverbial olive branch ...want to know what was in the package? A blender...no joke...a miniature blender…Anyone need one??? Its yours, free of charge...!!!
Posted on: Sun, 20 Jul 2014 22:07:30 +0000
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