Ego, Attachments, Cording....beautiful words that when fully understood can be managed and healed in the most profound ways!! "Cord Cutting" or "Cord Removal" is a very interesting process. I am very empathic and until I fully understood how to "manage" that I was "corded" into EVERYONE and EVERYTHING!! Very exhausting and cutting those cords was actually painful in some cases and once cut...I could actually feel the hole it left in me. That was all before I realized how empty I was inside and how I needed to cord into others to fill those empty holes. The holes that were created by loneliness, abandonment issues from my father, insecurities, ego, not feeling good enough, the need for recognition and approval from others, feelings of having to be needed in order for others to LOVE me etc. Constantly running around trying to find people and circumstances to "complete" me or to fill my voids. Mostly what I remember is the attraction to needy people so that I can have a "purpose" and feel like I was responsible for "fixing" people. I was the master at seeing the dysfunction in others and wore a neon sign on my head that pointed to my heart and said..."Come dump your problems here". And as loving as I felt I was to others, I was not attracting in my life any kind of love that was fulfilling to me or that was fully available emotionally, spiritually, physically. Little did I know that I was attracting the unhealthy experiences that mirrored who I was. We attract mirrors of ourselves and what we feel worthy of and much of this is done on a subconscious level especially when one is completely ASLEEP or deep in the denial phase, unwilling or incapable of seeing the TRUTH. The AWAKENING are a series of AHA moments when you begin to realize FINALLY through usually PAINFUL experiences and repeated patterns (that usually intensify through each cycle) the source of your own dysfunction. That is why NOW am able to see ALL of my past experiences as blessings...beautiful lessons that repeated and repeated (sometimes through past lives even) until I was able to learn what I came here to learn. For me it was about LOVE and the difference between Higher Spiritual LOVE vs. Lower vibrational and dysfunctional Love. Once learned...I was able to not only GIVE it, but Receive it as a MASTER of my own life because my Spiritual Journey gave me the NEW experiences of AWARENESS that showed me how FULL of Light and LOVE I AM...The reason why I felt empty is because I was not in "alignment" with the source that is all LIFE GIVING. I had not embraced my Inner Goddess (my higher self), I was wondering outside of MYSELF because when I went INSIDE I had all these shadows and memories and dysfunction and pain that I was not ready to look at. So these shadows came to me in the forms of experiences, soulmates, mirrors so that I can see all that I LOVE and HATE in myself with the free will to SHIFT and CHANGE at any moment. The shifting is really throughout ones life, but after 12-21-12 there is no escaping the LIGHT. This is a time for humanity to raise their consciousness to a more advanced level. We are in a whole new cycle literally elevating into a higher dimension/frequency on the planet...that is why so many people are CONNECTING on this deeper more spiritual level with one another regardless of "religious" backgrounds and beliefs. We SEE each in SPIRIT (5D) rather than PHYSICAL (3D) ways and we are recognizing and remembering WHO WE ARE..... TO BE CONTINUED.... The Unsung Goddess
Posted on: Wed, 12 Jun 2013 17:15:39 +0000
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