Feeling much better today. Brakes are fixed. Guy said need new calipers too but that 500 more but he said its drivable for couple months at least. Anyone looking to buy a car he he I asked my mom to go to therapy with me just the two of us. Think it would serve us both well. Not sure how she took it. Such is my relationship with her. More like drive-by comments that frustrate me more than support me. I showed her texts to some people. They were blunt. She is very cold hearted to you. Ive been saying that for years. It not her fault. She thinks there is a limited supply of love and attention and well to be perfectly honest that supply has never really been for me. Im not anti-mom though. Ive loved her even more. Especially when Im clean. I crave her approval. She knows it too. But never got it and never going to. That why therapy would help us. And Lord have mercy on my soul if I treat my girlfriends kids like Bill treated me and Gina. Dena says I might. It makes me sick inside to think the one person I dont want to be like is the only example of step father I have to go by. Dont get me wrong bill a great guy on surface. The family loves him. But that not the side he shows you that he shows me and Gina. I have had hundreds of conversations with Gina about him. She claims she has utmost respect for him but hell is everyone in this family two sided or what. Guess Bill helped her recently. He the God damned HERO. Well if that who you going to rely on good freaking luck. Grandma says hell do anything for anybody but then you gotta sit there with him and listen about all his aches and pains the lawn mowing just created. Kinda like Ill do it for you but you dont just have to pay me you gotta feel sorry for me too. You are paying twice. Ugh! Like this post if you have any similar issues with friends or family. People gotta start treating others right. We might not always have as much time as we think. Love you all
Posted on: Mon, 10 Mar 2014 01:11:17 +0000