Fight for your tatas! I thought the battle ended once the cancer was gone and thankfully for me and so many women you just go through the motions. You accept that you may lose your breast like myself or your hair or both. You may suffer through radiation, Chemo, surgeries etc. But, your focus is in survival and thats all that matters so you put your blinders on and like a friend told me head up, shoulders back, eyes straight ahead and soldier on thats what I and so many other have done and Im sure like myself so much of it is a blur looking back. The surgeries, the waiting, the Drs. And specialist and oncologist. You just matched where you were told to go and did what you were told you needed to do. The hardest part was waiting for the all clear. I thank God received it as did my beautiful friend Shawn Summer. However, soon after my diagnosis a beautiful and fellow Wardog was diagnosed with triple negative advanced stage cancer. Trudee Boulware, fought harder then anyone I know and stayed strong and courageous and optimistic until the end when she lost her battle. So maybe at times I fell petty and selfish for wanting to have my reconstruction completed but, every summer when I just want to throw on a swimsuit or tank top I have to be reminded of what I went through. When my children ask questions, when I think of dating and maybe one day falling in love. When I think of all the women now having prophylactic mastectomies and getting reconstruction. Its not fair!! I didnt ask for this and I just want to be whole again. I dont know if thats selfish when others have lost the battle, children have lost their mothers, parents have lost children but, its what I need and if that makes me selfish or ungrateful Then Im sorry.
Posted on: Thu, 18 Sep 2014 02:06:24 +0000
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