Frequencies That awesome moment when you find someone with the same frequency as yours. For starters, Im already apologizing for this long story, I also mixed two languages together to make it more understandable to the general readers of The UST Files, and Im also apologizing for any typographical errors. I only want to convey my story and to not get bashed due to some small typos. Thanks. Grade 5. Transferee ako nun. Seatmates tayo, di gaano kaganda yung simula ng pagkakakilala natin kasi naging bully ako sayo, so napapaiyak kita most of the time and Id always feel sorry sa nagawa ko pero I really cant explain the feeling. Grade 6. You started to become immune to my bullying. (Pang-aasar lang naman, not physical nor harassment) though napapaiyak pa din kita, during that time, I was still wondering kung bakit sayo ko lang ginagawa yun, I guess yun lang siguro ang way ko para mapansin mo ko kaso I also wanted to friends with you kasi you looked like a fun person. 1st year HS. Woah, the time of puberty is nye. Everyone around us started to change, but that never lessen my heartfelt attention for you. Di ko alam kung anong pumasok sa utak ko pero, the bullying, lahat ng kagaguhan ko, tinigil ko. Di na kita pinaiyak, but for a change, pinapatawa naman kita. 2nd year HS. Another woah, shes also starting to get molded by puberty, by the end of the SY ang ganda na niya. Naging mag-tropa na tayo, tuwang-tuwa ako nun, you also said to me that you already have forgiven from all the trouble I caused during our elem. days. 3rd year HS. You said you fell in-love with this popular dude from school, you told me na, Wala akong chance dun, tignan mo naman ako, ordinaryong babae lang, eh siya.. I always stated the same stuff to you over and over but the meaning of every word I said grew, in the end, naging sila kaso after 2 months break kagad. Nagalit ako dun sa dude, so medyo naaya ko siya sa away. Nagalit ka sakin kasi bat ko ginawa yun. Nainis ako sayo because di mo man lang na-appreciate yung protectiveness and care ko sayo. Do you know how disappointed I was back then? The feeling of being pushed away by the person you trust and care about the most. Its like your insides are being crushed and turned into a creamy variety of a smoothie. 4th year HS. This is a blank memory, no communication at all, even during our graduation, nothing. All I know is, were both enrolling in our dream universities. Summer before College began, I realized na I loved you since 2nd year pa. Tanga ko noh? 1st year College. Same school, same course. I finally had the courage to talk to you again, I noticed something different about you. Mas naging maganda ka...and I think mas na-inlove pa ko sayo. We started again, our friendship. It only took a few months for us to become close to one another again. I was happy. 2nd year College. This is it. The life changing decision since the day we met. I decided to court you, not that jeje kind of courting stuff, the matured kind. Isang buwan pa lang, um-oo ka kagad. I was the luckiest man in the world. Sinabi mo sakin na since 1st year pala eh may crush ka na sakin, kaso ang naging problema lang. Ako, sinimulan na kitang mahalin nun. 3rd year College. The trust, the companionship, the way we talked to each other, the way the sun shines to reveal the color of your beautiful eyes. It was the greatest year of my life, or should I say, OUR LIVES. 4th year College. You got into a car accident. Devastation quickly succumb my senses. You got into a coma. The doctors said that there was a 50/50 chance of you waking up. It also came to my attention that you were preparing some stuff for a surprise birthday party for me, that of course really hit me hard, all I can think of back then was guilt, that I was to blame..... The following week, September of 2013, your body gave up. Do you guys know the sensation of getting sudden shock? Like everything around you was blacking out and falling apart. That was me. I bawled my eyes out every damn night thinking about you and how I wont see you ever again. After her wake/funeral. Your parents gave me a letter, they said that she wrote it for me, It was supposed to be a birthday present along with some other stuff. I hugged them both and apologized for what Ive done. Self-blaming was not helping at all. After I got home, I immediately opened the letter. Happy Birthday babe! Sorry kung eto lang afford ko, alam mo naman na I find words and actions as a better form of present than a material one. Im happy na nakilala kita kasi you were the one who changed my world, the one who changed my views in life. The one who taught me to smile more, to laugh more, to enjoy life as best as I could. You were the light that never burned out. Cheezy hahaha. Pero lahat yan ay totoo. Kung di ka dumating sa buhay ko, siguro ang empty ng life ko. To be honest, may ilang bagay pa kong di nasasabi sayo kagaya nung bata pa tayo? cute mo nun haha kaso bully kaya sige saka na. Joke lang babe. hehe. We both know naman that changes are constant but the best thing we can do is to adjust and defy the odds. Ika ng quote galing sa favorite kong book Can you make yourself love? Can you make yourself loved? And my answer to that is you. I love you and no matter what happens Ill still be in loved with you. Your heart is still with me babe, even if youre not here beside me anymore, the same frequency we both shared all those years ago would never die down. IanRen 2007 Faculty of Engineering
Posted on: Tue, 08 Jul 2014 08:55:14 +0000
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