***From A Reader*** NO BASHING!!! I am so angry..... at myself. I have time to reflect on my situation. It has been two years since my husbands affair. And yes I did post the homwwrecker on this site but I have come to realize that the person I am truly the most angry at is myself.... Im angry that I lost control of myself and allowed two people to define how I feel. When I found out about the affair I went into overdrive... you know how it goes.... make yourself more attractive, thinner, more fun and exciting, and lets not forget being more available in the bedroom..... all for what I might ask... to keep your man from wanting the other woman..... he already has a boosted ego from the affair and all I did for a year is boost it more at the expense of myself... how dare I do that to myself.... and all the while he got the very best of me... I so desperately wanted him to want me.... look at me the way he did her, and pursue me like he did with her... so much so that I stupidly based my self esteem and self worth on it.... now as I look back I have changed so much.... yes there is no better feeling in the world than being wanted by the man u love but I vow to never again be a door mat or think that I have to be someone Im not just to keep my man..I still have a lot of emotional scars that will never go away but now I am working on me for a change...
Posted on: Sat, 26 Jul 2014 20:54:08 +0000
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