Full Disclosure.. One of the hazards about being morbidly obese is the natural inclination to hide yourself away from the world. You isolate yourself and hope that the world doesnt forget about you, even though you yourself have turned your back on the world. I have missed out on numerous celebrations, get togethers and milestones because I was too afraid to let people see me in my vulnerable state. Which is funny because I happen to love serving others..a conundrum of sorts lol.. WELLLLLL..in order to kickstart my new lifestyle and transformation.. I have decided to put myself out there and try the wonderful world of online dating..Talk about ripping off the band aid hahaha.. Bear in mind that Im a solo parent and have been for the last 10yrs+ So it is hella funny getting back into socialising.. Very handy that I know virtually noone in this new city.. So far I have been on a few first dates.. Being a helluva lot older than the last time I tried this scene, Im able to be more assertive and discerning when it comes to agreeing and then going on said dates.. Its definetly eye opening, so many hilarious comparisons from online profile pics and then the real life person.. I am 100% upfront with my amazing self hahaha..the conversation topics are very broad but never boring..well apart from the most recent date who spoke in a monotone voice for 45mins straight.. I nearly cried with relief when the waiter showed up and asked will there be anything else? I very nearly asked him to bring my date a personality hahaha but me being me I said a polite no thank you then prayed for a fire to break out in the kitchen. Lol. Its amazing how much self doubt and negativity becomes so much a part of your life if you let it. I honestly didnt think I had much to offer should I decide to take the plunge into the dating world again..but with this Operation Transform Annie in progress, Im finding my confidence once again..its still early days but Im a helluva lot further along than I thought I would be.. My teens and I have been maintaining our nutrition, beach walks and training at home.. Im actually heading off home again from yet another invigorating bout of 1 on 1 personal training with Adrian aka the kid terminator..Gotta go home to recover and later on, prepare for date num 2 with Monotone Guy. Call me a softy but I agreed to give him a 2nd shot after he said he was very nervous and not himself etc.. He seems like an ok sort, palagi, 6ft, 3 degrees under his academic belt (hence boring monotone hahaha..jokes).. Hopefully I wont need to resort to stabbing my hand with a fork to stay awake.. Go me lol God bless and stay tuned..if you dare haha xxx
Posted on: Sat, 04 Oct 2014 01:06:59 +0000
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