Funny thing about crime, you get assaulted, raped, stalked, they murder your loved ones, they take your kids, and if you stand up against it..you are punished. Do you know how many times that I have heard, Kelly, you are going to make it muddy MAKE WHAT FKG MUDDY?? Are you kidding me? He is stalking my daughters? He raped me. He tried to kill my brother, he DID kill my family, he tried to frame my son. Well, if you react, if you are not perfect they will turn it on you. Well, I have evidence, emails, phone records, witnesses. well they are not going to talk to the witnesses they are going to go after you. They are not going to look at the evidence because the prosecutors and everyone are going to bury the evidence so you are going to get nowhere because they do not want you to. they are going to keep hurting you until you stop reacting. So, let me get this right, I am not allowed to protect my family or I go to jail. I am not allowed to speak up or they will crucify me. I am just supposed to lay back while they rape me, beat me and sit back and watch them take my familys lives one by one until what? ..you know what? fuk you THAT IS WHAT. I may get killed and I may die trying but it will be worth it. Because you mother fkrs are sick and someone needs to open this up. I may be only one footprint, I may be only one woman, I may be a many time broken girl then a broken woman, I may be only one Mother, I may be a nothing or a no one. But I AM A CHILD OF GOD and I am a good person and I will NOT allow evil to triumph on my family as long as there is a breath in my body to do so, I will fight ever single one of your sorry asses. So do NOT even try to convince me or tell me how it should be, this is barbaric and I am more civilized than to allow this to happen on my watch. Unfortunately, many out there do not realize the challenge of intellect that happens in cases like this because their intellect is not challenged to this level. And you can try anything you want to make me look like a nut case, and to date you have been pretty fkg successful because my children have been tormented my life has been destroyed. No matter what my children may be young and naive but I KNOW they know who and what I am and as they grow and see some of this for themselves you will NOT be able to further convince them of your evil either. I will lay my life on the truth and the fact that someday, the blood on your hands for doing this to my family will eat you alive. It will burn you like fire and you will not be able to stop it, you know why? Because God promised me, he will take care of this, the reason I have been able to navigate this hell is because I have had guidance by the holy spirit who has given me knowledge and insight into this enemy territory that I have no personal knowledge of. And as long as God has my back and I get the guidance I am going to grieve YOU who do nothing to stop the violence and empower it. The blood of our family will be on your body in your souls you will taste it, breathe it, live it, hear our cries, carry our souls and that is the introduction to the hell you will live unless YOU make it different. I am doing the best I can with every ounce of my being to protect my family from your poison. Yes, in doing that I get exposed to the poison. You know what? So fkg be it. The girl in me wants to be protected and have a hero come deliver us out of all of this. The educated woman in me knows that I must fight until the hero does come. I do not at all expect a human hero ever. I expect Jesus and therefore based on what I have been put through, I no longer trust no one nor will I. I believe God uses people to prevail over the evil and unfortunately I do not believe the ones in authority do that. Because my experience in this 50 years is that does not happen, they actually deceive and manipulate and further traumatize. My message to you to save your soul do not put your faith in any human being EVER. Put your faith in God, it is the only hope you have. That does NOT mean lay down and take it, follow the instincts and guidance you are given for it will not steer you wrong. This takes practice, listening, we make mistakes, we are naive, we must fine tune this to realize what it is. I have mad many mistakes and I feel it later then I reflect and see there were warnings, I was deceived. So do not blame yourself when this happens, it is a learning process and and often a painful one. As a child I did not understand why I had to learn the hard way, why take my virginty and rape me? Why God? But I did go to God, he was the only truth. The rest lied and covered things. Maybe God did not tell me why but he told me the most important truth of all that my soul was not reachable. They could not touch my soul. Ahhh but they came close when they took my son and killed my family. I screamed they did it, they touched my soul. They did not. It felt like it, they just came close. I know the predators find humor in this little woman swinging and kicking and screaming and fighting a battle that she is not at all equipped for. But you know what? I am in it because you pulled me into it and I am going to fight it. So you can be humored all you want laugh and joke all you want. Be entertained until, you get your ass kicked. If I do kick your ass you will know it and I believe, I have gotten pretty close. Rest assured, there is more than one way to do it. And I will try almost every single fkg one of them at this point. I have not graduated to the level of taking a life yet in this school of battle, I hope I never have to. There is a fine line I have not crossed yet. I have been on a chain of obedience and misery because I have children that I needed to protect and be here to give them what wisdom I could to navigate this hell while they are here. While you work so diligently to scramble their brains and tell them their Mother is crazy, spin it all on me and you get away with it because the truth is they do not know. Because they are innocent to your evil. They may be today, I KNOW, they will not be when they mature enough to understand the battle between evil and good. It is surely there. I also know they are so spiritual and they will surely face the battles because anyone spiritual and good will face the enemy. OVER AND OVER the innocence is like fuel to their existence and they thrive on it. The evil think the innocence is their fuel to rob it is the ultimate feeding frenzy. Yet, they are the ones that are deceived by Satan. They do not know hope, they do not know love, they take it because they can and we allow it. I do not have the solutions to this. I just know from my experience that we all have a soul, we have a choice to be evil or good. If we choose to be good that will be challenged by the evil regularly to the point of death. I know this, I do it every single day and have even as a child. I have drank the poison and I have lost because of lack of knowledge. Yet, to save my own soul, I have stood on the good side of that fine line. Trust me the humanistic side of me wants to do different when they are threatening my children and I must keep myself on the right side of that line. I am not saying by defending myself and my children I am crossing it because I have a right to do that if the opportunity presents and I do fight. I am saying that I must be obedient and follow the laws and regardless of the fact that I would like to demolish all of it right now because it does not work for a victim it only protects the criminals, I cannot. There is the frustration that someone like me deals with. The law is not our friend. That is deception. While I have prayed most of my life to see a difference. I never have. I wish I could give you hope and inspire you that our laws will protect you or that the people in the position to enforce those laws will protect you. I cannot. They will not and do not. You must do the best you can to protect yourself even if there is rape, murder, stalking..they are not going to do anything. THAT is the hard truth. You will never have to face until you are raped, your family is murdered or you are and then you will not care. So all of it is a moot point.
Posted on: Fri, 01 Nov 2013 13:03:11 +0000
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