God. Everyone also do not want to be born to be ugly. If I could ask for it as well, I do not want to be born ugly. But, why do people (family) itself is always taunting and insulting .. Because Im ugly. It was being compared was sick, O God. Very sick. Maybe because some of my family I was the ugliest. Im not pretty like all my cousins. Wounds like this is made poignant O God. I also do not want ugly. It feels very sick. What is wrong if Im ugly. Sometimes I regret it, why be born among a family like this. Who never saw me, never praise me ..... Where I merekaaaa hearts ...... Is not all that my precious in their eyes. I did not pretty God ........ Im self-conscious. I realize it all ...... But, when it denounced it hurts ..... What everyone should be pretty ..... I like this one also has gift of God ..... Ive bersykur and mensykurinya. But it was not to be reproached and compared ..... O God I am ugly .......... Give me a sincerity to be able to accept it. Give me patience ...... I do not like them ...... I do not like them to be proud of ..... Gorgeous ..... and indeed everything ..... This heart is too full to accommodate injured during this God .... Im sore. Very sore. This is not a late kelebay God. But a phrase for my pain. If I may be born again, I also do not want to have black,, I also want tall and slender and beautiful as they are ...... When people say the family is like a palace that made the residents happy .... It was not in my family. God ..... A time like this, what can I do to defend myself ... What can I do ..... And Im more what .... No Lord ...... No ............. I cried because I felt lost ...... I cried because I felt that they did no wrong ..... I do not even have something that I can show you ... I do not have anything to make me get up a little ......... My parents own ......... It never made me feel a little breathing in this regard .... YES I AM GOD IS BAD ....... I IS NOT NO nothing compared THEM .... Strengthen me, O GOD ....... Strengthen me. I DO NOT REGRET ARE IN THE FAMILY LIKE THIS .. But Im sick ..... Sore because this is much more painful for a cwek spertiku ... I also was not as pretty as my friends who was at home .... I do not like those who are always assessed many guys ..... They were always proud ...... God ...... Probably just need patience,,, But is just be patient ... Be patient and confirmed that I was like that .... It was further made worse O God .. Why I do not like those who can dibangga2kan ...... Why I do not like those who have a lot of excess and everything ... Why was I born into circumstances and environments like these, O God ... Ive realized and always been aware that Im ugly ........ But why should reproach and contempt ...... Everyone will also want to ask her if everything is fine again !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I never felt living among families who never gave me a room to believe in myself .... In fact, the more I can not trust myself .... In fact I did fall ..... and always insecure ...... I feel inferior ya allah ... Because I was ugly ........ It is always diejekkan to me .. Not fond of joking and ridicule because,, but ridicule painful .. And its always been. Crying alone in pain like this .. Just made me even more insecure ... I do not even know, what could give me the spirit ... Because it is the situation like that ..... Tired,, desperate ... God,, I want to give up ....... Gave up because I was tired .......... Tired of all the wounds and my pain ...... I do not have everything ...... I DO NOT LIKE THEM ........ God .... I want to give up ....... I want to give up ...... My heart shortness ........ Everything in this world as if give crowdedness ........ SEPERIH CRYING ..... ANY WILL NOT treat ...... Since childhood I have always been in a state like this ........ I wanted to get up but every time I got up,, there must be something made me weak and fell ........... Im weak. And I always lose ........... Not all can understand my pain, except papa,,, unless ya mila ari ... Unless my deer .. Unless my cute ... I was grateful when I was tired and fell, they were near me,,,,,, They still gave me the spirit ....... And thank you because they were always there ....... God,, this time, I do not feel like doing anything .. I felt every single thing that I do not give a happy outcome for me ..... Sick very sick O God ....... If only my parents (my mother and father) made me a little more confident in my life ... If only they would just give a little praise to me ...... Suppose they could just give a little bit of recognition for me .. Not like they always do this time. Suppose pain is because of others. Probably would not hurt this. But .. FAMILY ....... Alive but not living. Is that I felt during this ya Allah. I understand, a great person is not generated through ease. Great people formed through hardships, challenges, and tears. When it all happened to me, I also know, maybe God is shaping me to become a great man. Do not make me despair,,,,, God .... Do not let me weak ...
Posted on: Sat, 01 Nov 2014 09:01:03 +0000
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