Good morning my friends. I hope you all had a wonderful Christmas and that the fat man brought you all your heart desired! Sadly when he visited me he took my speech and one eye back with up the chimney with him so Christmas Day was rather a farce. I had eight people to cook for and somehow with the children and Lee I managed to pull it off and produce a very nice dinner. Sadly Romeo and Frankie spent much of the day in my bedroom. Because I was having an attack and the house was full of people I knew that in their effort to protect me someone may get on the wrong side of Romeo. My mother and I have a difficult relationship to put it mildly and my Dad does not like my boys. Because of this its difficult to have them in the same room as they pick up on the tension and Romeo has bitten my mother and my ex father in law in the past. I dont do it to protect them I do it to protect Romeo because the likely hood is that given half a chance they would say he was viscous and in this country that could mean them being ordered to be put to sleep. Romeo isnt a viscous dog he is however extremely protective of me and so is Frankie, although with Frankie its more noise than aggression. My biggest fear is that Romeo will hurt someone and they will force the issue and I cant help blaming myself because Romeo in particularly has been by my side from the moment he rescued me and when I am in an attack he is my biggest protector. When my mother starts to be unkind the tension levels rise and Romeo and Frankie respond to this aggressively. They know my Dad doesnt like them and although they are not hostile to him I hate that they feel that from him 😞 Lees Dad is a bear of a man and they normally shout at him for a few minutes because he is so big but soon settle at his feet. Coco is a different nature and she weeee bounced all around them for the day and they all fell in love with her ❤️ In the New Year I am going to do some training with them all particularly the boys because not having them with me to celebrate a family day made me feel sick inside as they are the children Lee and I could never have. Although I was blessed with Daisy I have had 8 failed pregnancies, 3 with Lee and those babies were very much wanted. One of the causes of my depression was a recent loss and Romeo was such an amazing gift at that time and I have always treated him and then Frankie as my babies. As I write this Romeo is on my lap and Frankie is wrapped around my shoulders. Coco is different although she is attached to me she is also attached to the rest of the family and is quite happy as long as she has a lap! Life throws up these challenges but we have to rise up and deal with them. Next year all my furbabies will celebrate with us! Hope you all had a lovely time and I would love to see any of your holiday snaps. On a serious note this is the time that blanket of depression can settle so please ask for help from those around you and never hesitate to contact me as I will always reply and this page is a family, a community and support is always available. Much love Liz xx
Posted on: Sat, 27 Dec 2014 14:11:53 +0000