Grateful to know I am in surrender mode.💓 Lots on my plate that is completely out of control. Kids, job, money, car. Love that idea of -relax (or chillax) nothing is in control. Had a 1 hour and 45 minute phone interview with my would be boss for an Executive role. Spent an hour with the same fellow last week too, and another with their HR and several with the retained recruiters. Grateful to still be in the game. Grateful it reminded me of my expertise and has given me a boost of energy towards my search. With the book due Aug 1 I really havent pursued opportunities as hard as perhaps I should have. I want this job. Think id excel at it and be impactful adding value to the organization. If it doesnt happen, it means a different direction for me- possibly non-profit, possibly ft writing or PR or even a couple of different p/t jobs. Still want to get a PhD long term. My priority right now is to make a living while being the best parent and coworker and person I can be. School and writing may need to come later when the kids are launched- or may just happen one class and one book at a time. If I had a magic wand Id like God to spell out the path and whats next on my Life journey. But I trust him completely. As always: In Gods time, not mine... Grateful to know my Kids and parenting are #1! My possible boss asked me describe what my neighbors would say about me- I shared that Im spiritual, have a heart of gold, always striving to be a good parent, balancing being there for my kids, I enjoy coaching and sponsoring others, serving others. Said I feel that every interaction is a holy interaction-- there for me to learn from and hopefully inspire folks I meet. A bit of a risk to use A Course In Miracles / Christian terminology, and even thesponsoring AA language, but its true to who I am. Wherever I land, its important to me to be congruent wether at work, at AA meetings,at home or church or the grocery store- I dont want to put a mask back on. If u need a game face to succeed--its not the right fit. Grateful I have enough self reflection to understand who I am, what I stand for, and that I am becoming the grown up I have always aspired to be. At the end of the interview I made a bold move and asked where I rank. Seems they are interested in continuing to talk and potentially meet me. But not the resounding we love you that I was seeking. I asked what would make me the front runner. He said patience. Ha! That is a lesson that keeps reoccurring- over and over. Ive stopped pushing as Ive done in the past. But Im still assertive, a risk taker. I hope it pays off and show how interested I am. I get it God! I need to be more patient. No question Ive become more obedient to God, more patient, more kind, more human, more humble. Im listening/meditating and praying and asking for Gods guidance all day all the time. By the way-- My beloved Escalade looks like its totaled. Frame is bent and front axel is cracked. The frame is all one piece so my mechanic implied that if they dont total it-- it may never drive quite right again. Had it moved over to a body shop who would rather repair it than set it out to pasture- so they get paid. No idea how it will play out. Praying that if its totaled I am able to pay it off and get a replacement car that has much better gas mileage. No job right now- just my book contract- so its not the ideal time to buy a car. Needing a miracle. I have an appointment with Willow Creek Care Center to apply for their auto ministry. Doing lots of footwork and letting Go of the results. Grateful to be getting picked up by Enterprise in the morning for a rental covered by State Farm. Will cover up to 24 days at about a buck a day out of pocket. Planning to have a garage sale a week from next Saturday, followed by a Christian Single Parents Event with me hosting. The Event is to picnic and watch a live play, Annie Get Your Gun, at Wallace Bowl, Gilson Beach, Wilmette. Need not be a parent to attend this free event. Must be God loving & single.💗💓💕💞💝 Grateful for Tammy and my friend Trish who have both offered to help with and potentially bring some of their own items to the garage sale. Hope to keep pairing down and make some $. Want to have a bake sell and lemonade stand too. Will work on the furniture in the garage to get it ready to resell. Want to stain it. Hammer some nails in and glue to make more secure. Will Wax it up or spray paint the wood and add cotton to fluff the pillows. Grateful thatI sent out a prayer warrior request and have had a great response. From the bottom if my heart thank you. Its so cool that FB makes the world and all the incredibly talented and loving people Ive known in my life so accessible. Grateful for yall who keep praying, consoling, inspiring, reading, and otherwise showing up in some fashion for me and the family. Hope you feel your presence in my heart, my prayers, my hope for you and yours too. I want for you, what you want for you. Hoping you feel Gods love and his strength holding you up and carrying you through all of lifes challenges. I know I do. And for that I am so grateful!!!!!! Amen.🙏
Posted on: Tue, 01 Jul 2014 03:24:50 +0000
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